In Too Deep.

i dont know if ive told yous this, but im afraid of commitments. im afraid of falling in too deep. 

When it comes to making friends, i make friends and make sure i dont get too close with them. 

i dont tell them my secrets, and i dont ask them about their secrets. 

it's up to them if they want to tell me their secrets. 

it's up to me if i want to let them into my life.

and i usually dont. because im afraid of backstabbers. im dont like being judged. i dont like feeling betrayed. 

im afraid of trusting ppl. i dont want to be held back. i dont want to feel attached. i want to be free. i want to do what i want to do without hurting anyone.

So when i feel like im in too deep, i panic. 

i stop. i turn. i seek for cover. i defend. i rewind. i retook the steps i took. 

i slowly come back out again, where it's nice and shallow. 

where it's anything and everything but serious.

the question is, 

where has my courage gone?

should i take a risk?

should i take this leap of faith?

what should i do?

Pray, Listen and Leave it be. 

Let's see where the wind takes me.

heyyyy look what i found!