the Undreamable Reality.

Such dreams like that leaves you gobsmacked, happy but depressed when you then realised that it's nothing more than a fantasy. this is reality, it hits you and leaves your .. mouth hanging.

i guess this is what love really is for me, not wanting to blink coz if i do, he might be gone. 

not wanting to say too much, coz if i do, some words might hurt him. 

not wanting to know too much, coz it might be dangerous to. 

not wanting to leave his side, coz he's the one who easily rises or lowers my happiness meter.

im glad i had that dream, because i now know what it feels like to be in love. <3 

one is all it took and one .. is more than enough for me.

Thank You for this Lesson, 

My Heavenly Father.

THE Dream of 2011.

we met at a friend's party. you were disguised, wearing sunnies and a cap. 
but when you turned your head and tilted your sunnies down, our eyes met and my heart flipped. 
i instantly  knew who you were at that moment and i just froze. o.o

we froze and stared for what seemed like 5 seconds, and you headed towards me, smiling. 
standing in front of me, you started talking and getting to know me. i spoke back, shy and a bit hesitant because of the many emotions going through my heart. so uncontrollable. <3

because you were famous and easily recognisable, you had to disguise and avoid sticking out in a crowd everytime we went out. but with your beautiful voice and talented hands, you'd always managed to draw a crowd and we'd always end up running to somewhere more private or hide in a bush haha! xD

during the whole time, i didnt want to speak too much in fear that id scare you away, i didnt want to ask you too much in case id find out something i didnt want to. i just listened, smiled and kept my eyes open as wide as i could, because if i blinked or closed my eyes for even one second, you'd disappear and be a dream that never happened. =[

all too soon, the day came when you'd have to leave for a flight. i really didnt want to let you go but i could tell that everything was a bit one sided now coz you're so famous. you then opened your arms for a hug, a farewell hug and gave me such a handsome smile that melted the same heart that melted when i first saw you. ._.

i walked slowly, and hesitantly towards your outstretched arms. when i reached you, i hugged you with all my might coz i really really didnt want you to go. it wasnt long enough, meeting you was ending all too quickly! so just when i thought i was suffocating you with my hug, you hugged back, even harder than i thought id hugged you coz it felt like my chest was being crushed and my heart was about to break. Yet you still continued, you still continued holding me in your arms, tightly and firmly. 

Then you whispered something, that i couldnt remember and that was when i woke up. 

The alarm from my phone was playing my favourite song, Whatcha Say by Jason Derulo. 

 ♥ :]

The Week before Uni (Part 1).

Uni's just next week! 

it seems so far away haha. 

Coming up are 

Mel's bday and Dad's bday; 

25th and 27th.

Tmrw's plans are .. Caro Shopping with Mel in the morning, Steamboat Lunch at Friend's and Mel's Bday Dinner at Raffles.

[= y.a.y =]

Teehee ;]

So besides making chocolate cakes in the Toilet to pass time, here's what i do once in a blue moon.

ohhh like it's not enough, here's MORE pictures of me...

WITH FLASH! 

(at that time, i was trying to see what colour my hair was with and without flash xP)

loooooooooool you must be thaaat bored to read this useless post hey? dont worry, im bored too. its only 10.54pm, which isnnt really a good time to watch any of my 1 hour dramas coz intend to sleep BY ELEVEN. (=

Weekend.

Yesterday i had the many rides of my life at Adventure World. One of which id especially want to share was going on the Free Fall. Now that ive been on one of those, i think it's safe to say that my manny manny Life's Goals are happily DOWN by one hehe! YAY! =D

(thanks for inviting me Gladys&Gillian! ^^)

After that short period of time at Adventure World, i got home and had to clean myself for some sleepover at my friends'. We were supposed to bake Macaroons together, but the hosts started without everyone coz everyone showed up late. Nontheless, i had some when i got there and YUMMM!! WOULD SO LOVE TO EAT MORE OMNOMNOMNOMMS~!!
(can someone please stop this eating machine aye -.-)

(credits to Mel)

AND THEN after the sleepover, we decided to pig out at Maccas for breakfast. because i didnt bring any spare clothes to change, i went there in my pjs .. no, never again please. i actually saw ppl i knew! O.O 

and for dinner, my family decided to head over to Hungry Jacks for cheap unhealthy dinner. 

Eecks! 

So not only did i feel disgusting, fat and tired today ... my neck, arms and legs are continuously aching like mad. (must be because of the rides and me gripping on the bars for my dear life >"

and my dear ONE eye's HALF RED. tell me, how is that possible?? (no ive not been using contacts, honest!)

Uni in one week peeps, 

yataaa~! (: