GG - Gym Goals.

1. Lose Weight : 
Be 50-52kilos [:< 

2. Tone Muscles : 
Weights & Squats!

3. Be Hot As : 
HellsToTheYesPlease.

I PLUCKED IT. T_T"

God please dont let me have anymore white hair.

One strand was obvious enough :'c

no more okay? 

please stop and be good, Dear Hair.

BE. GOOD.

We're so Evil, that Evil itself becomes a better friend than Good. idkwhatimsayinganymore.

this isnt even acceptable!!
at least they had the courtesy to get married.
but they got married for the sake of the baby!
at least they decided to get married.
it's not like they dont know biiiiiiiiiiirth control!
AT LEAST they got married at the end .. right?

What was once definitely wrong, 
is now acceptable.
Because there are much worst cases out there, 
to compromise it with.
(ie. pregnancy without marriage)

This shouldnt even be acceptable right?
Tell me if im wronggg. Tell me if im stupid to even be bothered by news like this.

Im so angry at guys not respecting girls
AND at girls allowing themselves to be used like that.
where is your dignity. where is your respect.
im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry.im so angry. i dont even know why im wasting my feelings on these people :'( 

How long more will God be able to tolerate this.
Have mercy.
Im so disappointed :'c

# gettingpregnantbeforemarriage.

# calm down.

# whatiswrongwithyou.

#what kind of friend am i.

# gotta move on.

# hard to not judge.

#  DONT JUDGE D:<

just your average girl.

what should i do,
to make you love me,
what should i do,
to make you care?

i.
need.
encouragement.

who loves me.
ahh.. ithurts.

Time te' Resist .

# hard.core.

# burn fat.

# freeze.

o.O

When a customer swears in front of me, I think ' What did i do to deserve this ._.'

When a friend swears in front of me, I think ' Whoa C-H-I-L-L mate ,chiiill~ '

When a kid swears in front of me, I think ' omg kids nowadays. =.= sighs'

When an old person swears in front of me, I think ' ...>.>" Grouchypoo.'

Every Rose Has Its Thorns.

This girl had always been a weird one.
When she's happy, she chats, laughs, bubbles and brightens everyone's day with happiness and joy.
When she's moody, she stays home and listens to the same sad playlist until her dreams take her far far away to wonderland so that she can start anew the next morning, freshened and all past forgotten.

This girl once said to herself 
' I am better left alone when sad or angry. I prefer hurting alone than someone else hurting because of me.'
She has also once thought 'Maybe I am meant to hurt, so everyone else can be happy.' 
Many might think it senseless and silly, but to this girl, it made all the sense in the world on that normal day.

She comes into one's life especially when one's heart is aching or when one is feeling lost, 
She leads the way to the light, showering many words of wisdom and reasoning encouragement;
this girl provides a listening ear when one needs to let out a whole bucket of rants, 
or a shoulder to lean on when one is tired of facing the many rocks and hills of life.

As easily as many prefer to talk and share about their worries and burdens to one like her, 
this girl prefers just the opposite. To her, talking about her life brings her nothing but judgement and even more worry. She prefers thinking about them silently, waiting for the signs her God might or might not give, constantly reminding herself that her failures or rejections does not define who she is. People who know her will know that this girl only voices out when she has found an answer to her problem. This girl will say ' I will tell you when I am ready to tell you. As of yet, I am not ready to talk about it and neither do I want to talk about until I am ready to. '  In simple crude words, she really means ' Please leave me alone. '
So dont you agree? This girl really is better left alone when she sad, moody or angry, dont you think?

On one very night, this girl made a mistake.
She had had a very bad day; everything was falling apart, her existence suddenly seemed so pointless.
Countless insults and ridicules were being hurled around in her head.

That very night, this girl decided to be amongst company.
Hoping that by being around company, she might just cheer up, 
Hoping that by being around company itself, she might just forget that dreadful day 
and share everyone else's happiness.

On that very night as she returned from her company, 
this girl realised how ashamed she felt, exposing herself to that very same company.
'What have I done?' 'Why did i go?' 'What was I thinking?' she thought countless times to herself.

Memories of that very night flashed before her eyes;
' Hmm how are you? Are you okay? '
' Dont feel like talking today. Sorry.'
' Hmm..What happened to you..'
' -shrugs- '

' Are you okay? Why do you look so sad? ' 
' This IS. my normal face.' 
' Nooo it's not-' 
' YES. it is.'

' So do you have anything you'd like to share with us tonight?'
' No.'
' No thoughts on-'
' No.'

' What about you? What did you write?'
' Nothing much.'
' ...ookay '
' .. ' 

This girl drowned herself in guilt and regret, 
she was hating herself for having forgotten what she once promised to herself.

' Every rose has its thorns ' she recited as she listened to her same ole' playlist whenever she feels sad. 
' Tonight I have pricked one too many. ' she thought and if she could turn back time just once, she wished she would've stayed home, as she's always had, when she was moody.

Just so they wouldnt have had to see this other side of her...
so they wouldnt have had to question and bring up the dreadful memories of her day...
so they wouldnt have had felt hurt or annoyed, at her cold and neglecting treatment...
so they wouldnt have had to know, this other side of her and mark it down in their memories forever...


She wrapped herself up in her cosy covers, relieved she is back home and away from people, and sighed.
She imagined each and every one of their disapproving face and said her God;

'I am very sorry for acting like this tonight. Im sorry to them as well, I have no excuse to show them such a bad attitude. Im sorry for behaving so rudely.'
As she rolled to the other side of her bed, she added 'Let us hope to pretend that nothing has happened, and come together again next week with nothing but love.'
Before she let her mind wander into the land of dreams, 
she recited again, 'Every rose .. has its thorns.. ' only this time, she felt a tiny bit of comfort in knowing how much truth it rings at that point in time.

so restless.

but who would hang out with me ._.

im only close to me.

INTRODUCING.

:3 :3 :3 :3 :3 :3

Worst 2 Days of My Life.

#sunday&monday
#food poisoning
#salad&wraps
#diarrheoa
#vomitting
#minor fever
#lost2.5kilos (yay ^^)

ive always seen those squares ('#') being used in facebook, but ive never been sure what it meant.
is it an app of some sort?or just a symbol for tags?
whatever it is, it sure is helpful for nutshells! 

So Friggin Amazing!!

im getting tearful just watching so many fans scream for Running Man in episode 72 :*))

Our future pet!

omnomnoms ♥

2013 Resolutions.

better late than never! c;

1. Get my Driver's License ***VERYDESPERATEE
2. Stay below 52kg - safer to get to 50kg.
3. Earn more, Spend less! $$
4. Memorise a Piano Piece ;P
5. Skin and Fashion - time to play around (:
6. Learn how to use my Curler ^^"
7. Practice Tolerance and Love >:x
8. Do my best!



Once ive got my Driver's license,
1. Apply for VacWork!
2. Attend Dance Classes!
3. Gyyymm it out bruh!
4. Karokee every Tuesday Night! (well...at least once a month ^^)
5. If still interested, sign up for Vocal and Korean Classes!

FOR NOW, 

hannaneem jebaaal! 

>"<

Past Years.

because everyone talks about the past year before talking about the new year,
i shall do the same ^^

Year 2012, the LoveHate Rollercoaster.
2012 the rollercoaster.
Mainly because ive met Jo, which has been a good and a bad thing!
Before having met him,
my life was the same everyday;
nothing new, nothing different, nothing was changing.






Year 2011. Absolutely Loved Being 8ighteen
In 2011 before he came into my life,
i was so happy being a part of everything; uni, being with new friends, going on roadtrips and bday parties, going to events, going to concerts and just.. socialising. i was in my prime socialising time (:








When i got together with Jo,
i experienced many spurs of emotions
everyday.
one hour we can be as happy as a yappy,
the next, we can be as angry as Mister Angry the dwarf.

These were the many struggles we faced, as do other couples when they first started;
Insecurities, Doubts, Anxieties, Misunderstandings, Assumptions, Expectations, Impatience, Negligence, All Talk but No Action, Complaints, Anger, Hurt and Rejection.


May i add that many people didnt support our relationship at first; 
- didnt like where we went (they thought it was too far or unneccessary etc.), 
- couldnt stand us spending so much time together (everytime we could)
- didnt like the things we do together (mostly eating and watching movies at the cinemas or at home)
- didnt like how he's always included, because he's always with me


But through these many struggles, because he's one to persist, he made sure we solved what we stirred straightaway or, at least within the next hour. 
By the end of 2012, i am proud to say that we've learnt..
Willingness, Trust, Assurance, Genuine Love, Effort, Time, Loyalty, Honesty, Support, Encouragement, Patience, Understanding, Gratefulness, Tolerance, Commitment.

Year 2010, Transitioning from Highschool to Uni.
Lotsa 18th bday celebrations with my highschool friends! 
Worked for 6 months before i started uni.
When i finally entered uni, i was very excitedly meeting new friends, getting involved with social events and church events. ill let the pictures do the talking. 

Moved from Brown Hair..

..To Dark Red Hair.

Enjoyyy~

very first friends i made, i call them ''Chindos' coz they're a mix of chinese and indo c;

Celebrating 18th Bdays with my Highschool Bubs

Started Hanging out with this big Curtin Group

Roadtrip with Churchies

Youth!

Year 2009. Testing the Waters in Year 12!

last year of highschool + rivercruise +ball and lotsa family time.

Leavers 09! + some yr11s ;3

Ball

Rivercruise

Family with Nana&Uncle @ Araluen.

Year 2008. Settaling.
I dont even have photos in my current hard drive that's this back in time hey =/
here you go! 
Looks like i enjoyed walking to school, eating Western food, exploring the Aussie culture and was very happy celebrating my sweet sixteen in Australia (:

Year 2007, Goodbye Malaysia.
Was when i first started blogging. I blogged about my last Christmas and last moments in Msia.

^ very malaysian cultured i was with my ways, words and blog ;p

WHY dont i feel like blogging anymore?

especially when i have sooooooooo many things i want to update yous on,
i just cant find the right.. mood to ><

sighhs

depressed depressed.