2017.

Here's to trying new things on my own this year!

Hike

Beach

Yoga

Crafts/Art/Colouring

Music - Piano, Guitar and/or Ukelele

Travelling

Water Sports

Addictiveee

 ... and that dont mean im that kinda girl (;

Love Demands Everything; both the Good and the Bad.

If lovers didn’t fight,
Love would not have existed.
In love, you need to indulge in fights-
Be a little louder than usual,
Complain, argue
Cry.
Do the fiercest of things
Shut room doors randomly,
Sit alone,
Make single coffees,
Read books pretentiously,
Die out of jealousy
And go crazy
Beyond cardiac and cranial responsibilities.
And once you have released
All the anger and fury,
Love will bind you back,
Love promises to bind you back,
Stitch your pages
Into a book.
This will happen,
This needs to happen.
For,
Love
Demands
Everything.
And, everything includes both
The Good
And the Bad-
And that is why

Love is
Everything.
That is why,
When lovers fight,
The fight ends with a
Criminal
“I love you.”
And that is why,
Love is love
And not anything else.
But remember-
If lovers didn’t fight,
Love wouldn’t have existed.

— Mui

Out with the Old, In with the New!

Food for thought.
Thank you for looking out for me, God (:

On Point! (..why is she naked tho o.O""")

Lately I’ve been thinking about who I want to love, and how I want to love, and why I want to love the way I want to love, and what I need to learn to love that way, and who I need to become to become the kind of love I want to be…and when I break it all down, when I whittle it into a single breath, it essentially comes out like this: Before I die, I want to be somebody’s favorite hiding place, the place they can put everything they know they need to survive, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer, and be absolutely certain I will keep it safe. I will keep it safe.

- Andrea Gibson

Painting by Kenne Gregoire

Because a Prayer is more beautiful than a Farewell.

His mother,
Her mother,
Their grandmother,
Their sick mother, 
His girl, 
Her guy.

A year for goodbyes,

a year to leave the past behind.

A year for new beginnings.

To those who've lost someone close to your heart,

whether expectedly or unexpectedly.

You are not alone.

Look for the light at the end of the tunnel.

Keep looking for it, you'll reach it before you know it.

Them Tuesday Feels.

Go out and get some air

To a place where no one can find you

Who cares if you seem a little sad

You’re not alone

Sometimes it’s lonely lonely lonely

Sometimes it’s lonely lonely lonely

Go out and get some air

To a place where no one can find you

This is what's up.

So since I am more active on Instagram than I am here, I would like to take this opportunity to write a list of things to be posted on Instagram.
- Gbye to Muffin Break
- Princess Cruise Adventures
- Singapore and Msia Adventures
- Catchups with CVC girls
- Roadtrip to Busselton&Margaret River
- My Bday
- My Graduation
- Clubbing with MB girls
- Church Family Camp
- Harry Potter Night with Youth


YES i think that is about it! I might lose some followers on IG if i spammed all in one go so id better not. Ive been so free these days, but hopefully, not for long. HOPEFULLY, someone will give me a job soon.

The Angry Girlfriend.

If you do it’s GOOD, if I do it’s DONE
How can you always say that I’m wrong
You always want to win
Tears are your ultimate weapon

I was attracted to your confidence at first
But every day I went down on my knees
You magnified even my minor mistakes
And pushed me to the edge of the cliff
Well I love you anyway, that’s why I put up with you

Every day every night feel like a fool
You gotta know
Why why why are you always mad mad mad at me
Can we go back to the way we were

If you do it always becomes the right words
If you do I can never win
Suddenly you become a different person
When we get along well I get more nervous

If I do If I do
If I say something you always say let’s break up
So I can’t get any closer
Can’t deepen my love for you

Your major is saying the same thing over and over
You force me to do things to please you
I am tired of these trials with already known results
I’m desperate to break free

To you they’re just friends
To me they’re jerks who could be flirting with you
Another mistake, if you do it’s ok, but if I do huh

I wish you wouldn’t go too far but you just can’t stop
Now I say in my sleep, I’ll be good
When there’s nothing to say you always say, I’m gonna go to bed
Frustrated with no one to talk to
Sometimes I delude myself that I’m trapped

If you do it always becomes the right words
If you do I can never win
Suddenly you become a different person
When we get along well I get more nervous

If I do If I do
If I say something you always say let’s break up
So I can’t get any closer
Can’t deepen my love for you

Every day every night feel like a fool
You gotta know
Why why why are you always mad mad mad at me
Can we go back to the way we were

If you do it always becomes the right words
If you do I can never win
Suddenly you become a different person
When we get along well I get more nervous

If I do If I do
If I say something you always say let’s break up
So I can’t get any closer
Can’t deepen my love for you

Ily.

Why do you love me?

 

Because you have heart.

 

Duhh everyone has a heart, that's how we were made..

 

Well you have my heart k

 

Still doesn't answer my question! :p

 

Ok here it is ;

I love you because from the day I met you, you genuinely loved me and cared for me, until I ruined it because we had to be apart.
but as we progressed downhill, I realised that I learnt to love more in different ways, through the pain, and through the happy times.

You have taught me to be patient, to think before speaking, and to aspire to be a man who wants to own up and make sure I am someone dependable.

 

How's that?

 

(:

 

 

... I sound pretty demanding huh ^^"

but im grateful, nonetheless!

 

(THANKYOUGOD for conversations like this :3 #rareconversations #ldr #lovehaterelationship)

That's how it is!

Sing.

Record.

 

Modify.

 

Publish.

 

Sing as modified, with choreography.

 

 

What was the most difficult moment you’ve experienced in unrequited love?

Or the most difficult moment you've experienced with the person you have a crush on?

1. Even when he knows I like him, he treats me like an invisible person (>_<)

2. When he friendzones me with 'You're a good friend' (._.)

3. When I have no courage to contact him first and wait for him blankly (o__o)

4. When he says he likes my friend and asks me to introduce him to her (T_T)

5. When he is too popular (-.-)

6. When i cant do anything but think of him 24/7 (@_@)

7. When he seeks me out for love advice (x_x)

 

Happy Times.

1. New Car!

It's dark blue.

During the day, it's your typical blue but when the sun goes down, it looks beeeeeaauutiful (':

pfft what is this unfounded pride.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

2. New Laptop!

Bought it on Boxing Day.

Even though I don't like it's colour, I am so thankful for it's speed, function and light-up pad. 

 

 

 

 

3. New Pet!

Great to lean my head on! It makes my head feel small too teehee!

This was a gift from Japan, for my graduation! Ooh speaking of..

 

 

 

4. Graduation!

Yes, I have finally graduated after what seemed like forever. Now unto hoping I DO get a professional job! 

 

 

 

5. Monkey See, Monkey Do!

Went to the Zoo with these Monkeys; Who knew how fun it could be!

 

 

 

6. Beach!!

Got to visit the beach TWICE this year after 5 years! Mother nature is SO beautiful~

 

 

 

7. HIGH TEA <3 font="">

Got to experience high tea in a lovely villa that played paris-like songs (: Oh what a feeling!

 

Meet Alcopulco, my 2nd pet.

Learning a language doesn't happen overnight.

I WISH IT DID,

but im no genius :(

 

I know ill get there one day,

ive just got to keep working at it everyday, one day at a time.

And one day, MAYBE, one day,

words will flow out like running water.

 

And then the adventure shall begin.

#dontgiveup

You've got to make it obvious!

What?

Yea, make it obvious!

Obvious, how?

Like, i dont know, hold hands, do things for each other, have a good time together in front of them. THEY'VE got to SEE it. I gave it my best to show them that i want to marry her!

Yea, like everytime he comes to my house, he makes sure he brings a small gift. It doesnt have to be expensive, it can just be a simple thing like biscuits or cookies. It will definitely affect how they view him.

And while he was at my house, he'd go all out to try and impress them. And he made it really obvious he loves me, he always held my hand or put his arm around my shoulders. I know it sounds awkward and a bit too much, but when they SEE for themselves how much he really wants you, and how much you really want him, they'll slowly start to accept. 

You HAVE to show it to them, make it obvious. But im not saying be unnatural about it, or purposely do things you dont normally do in front of them. Just be more OPEN about your relationship, so that not only they can see it but others too. How you treat each other is important because all parents want for their children is someone that can provide and make them happy.

Yea i was SO nervous but i was determined to show them that they are in good hands, you see? I needed to earn their trust, so i dedicated time and effort to impress them with all Ive got. And they eventually accepted that we DO love each other and that I was willing to do my best for her. They finally gave us their blessings (:

Maybe that's why people always do what they do. 

Ive always been reserved about publicly showing any affections;

simple things like holding hands when friends who are single, are around, I try not to do.

I make sure that noone I know is around, then only will I allow any display of affection.

Why do I do this?

Some may think I'm being fussy and paranoid, 

whereas others may think I'm being considerate and understanding.

It's because when I was single myself, 

seeing or being near PDA made me feel uncomfortable/left out,

but now, I feel even more uncomfortable and lonely when I see or am near PDA, 

because i AM in a relationship but I have noone to share my affections with, for now.

Plus I dont want to be viewed as twopeople but one, 

especially when Im just casually walking on my own. 

Just me, myself and I.

I feel like if people always see me and him together, 

I'd look lonely when Im just by myself.

BUT maybe this is just me overthinking again.

Or maybe not.

#PDAissues

Stop worrying.

What happened to back in the days when parents were kind, patient and understanding?

 

What break?! How long?! Have u done ur resume?! Just apply!  Do ur resume and apply!

Stop forcing me.
Stop pushing me.
Ur ruining it.
Why are u so worried?
Have u no faith that God will provide?
Stop. It.

 I WILL apply,
Do u think im that sorta daughter who'd abandon u and travel to wherever I want??

No, no and no!! You know how I am, u made me like this so TRUST ME.

Just because you never had the break you wanted after you finished school,

doesn't mean I cant have mine.

 

IF you were thinking :

After all ive done for them,

after all this hard work,

going to work everyday,

suffering for them just to earn them money so they can study,

now they wont do the same for me.

 

WELL, YOU'RE BEING OVER-DRAMATIC.

Please be the understanding parent I thought ive always had,

and let me apply when I am ready.

What's the point of pushing me into getting a job,

when im negative about it because im not ready?

 

Do you think ill never be ready?

Puh-lease.

Im not retarded.

 

That Nice Daughter.

This friend of mine, is always worried about helping her parents out. 

I told her, ' Dont you think it's a bit selfish of them? To ask you to help them out all the time '

'No' she replied, with a smile she said ' I love helping them out! If im not helping them out, then i'd feel like a bad daughter. I mean, they're family! When it comes to family, helping is unquestionable.'

'What about your life? What about the things you want to do but couldnt do because you're so tied down?' I asked.

'Well, I believe there's a time for everything. So it's just not that time yet for me to do what I want, because my parents need me. I know I'd definitely be able to do what I want to do, later on in life, when my parents are okay without me, but for now, because they need my help, I will help them'

' What a nice daughter she is, ' I thought to myself, 'She's always thinking about others first.'

One day, 

' Ive had enough of this !@#$! '

' Good for nothing bunch of @#$! '

' After everything we've done for them, they treat us like #@$!

' Keep taking us for granted, enough of their #!$! '

That friend of mine came to me and told me that her parents, have been very mean lately. 

' I dont understand, what did i do wrong? ' she asked desperately.

' Will it never be enough for them? All these years I sacrificed my friends, my uni, my life, to help them and yet they think I treat them like crap?! ' she cried, her eyes full of hurt.

' Did I say something wrong? Did i do something wrong? No I didnt! I did everything they told me to! '

As confused as she was, all I could do was listen. I listened to her confusion, her exasperation, her disappointment.

I hope her parents will stop being mean to her.

I hope she'll find the answers to her confusion.

I hope that this was all just a bad dream, 

and that she will wake up from it tomorrow and continue to be that nice daughter, 

who enjoys helping her parents out because they're family.

I hope she will be okay.

I Must Be Crazy.

Yea, i admit, my ldr is pretty unstable at the moment but hey, so what.

Why do you stay?

What do you like about him?

What kind of guy are you hoping for?

God. 

Knows.

How strong is your love?
What is love to you?
For me, the greatest love of all is a love that is unconditional and selfless.
Loving someone who mistreats you, still loving them nontheless.
That, to me, is practicing the sort of love Jesus showed us himself, when he came down to earth.

'Forgive the people, for they do not know,' he said to God before he breathed his last. For the people who hung him, for the people who mocked him for spreading the truth, for the people who turned away and said he's a cuckoo head; Jesus still asked God to forgive them, not because He had to, but because He wanted to, because He loves His people, the creation of His Father.

Only just a Dream.

Him : Are you sure you dont want me back on your graduation?

Her : Yea, you'd ruin my night if you're only back for the weekend. Id rather you come back for a week, at LEAST.

Him : Okay, so ill come back for a week but it will have to be after your graduation, is that okay?

Her : ... Yea.

(On the day of the graduation)

Them : Congratulations!

Her : Thanks!

Them : Omg congratulations on finally graduating!

Her : Thank you!

Them : Owh isnt your boyfriend here?

Her : Nope!

Them : Aww why not?

Her : I told him not to come ^^"

Them: What?! Why??

Her : Well, if he only came back for the weekend, he'd ruin my night because ill be sad he'd have to leave so soon. Especially since the last time i saw him was 6 months ago. Plus if he came back for the weekend, he wouldnt have enough money to come back at all for the year. So ive asked him to come back next time, when he can stay for at least a week.

Them : Oh.. i see :( that sucks.

Her : ... Yea .. :\

(She started feeling uncomfortable, so she turned around quickly, only to bump into someone else's chest.)

Him : *ahem* Congratulations on graduating, my love :D

Her : OMG YOU CAME!?

Him : I wouldnt miss it for the world, babe (: I know how much it means to you.

The Story of Today's Heartbreak.

Sometimes life is like that;
It gives you what you want after making you wait for so long,
then takes it back,
just when you thought you've had it all in the grasp of your hands.

Meet my inflatable pool,

bought before Christmas at the price of $30!

 

Grew up : Australia Day (Monday)

Found dead : Today (Thursday, 3 days later)

Moral of the story :

Embrace what you have now, while you have it.

You'll never know when it will leave you.

If you're abit confused, here's the full story.
I bought an inflatable pool and have been spending half an hour to an hour, at every chance I get, to pump it up with my tiny pump. The sweat, the heat, the dedication spent on pumping up my inflatable pool was indescribable. The process was painfully slow, so much so that I could still fold it in 4 after every try.

One night after a day out swimming at a friend's, I came home to a very pleasant surprise : an inflated pool. I was overjoyed, smiling from ear to ear. I planned to buy a car cover so I can transport it outside and leave it in the sun, covered.

Now im thinking, maybe I should've kept it in my room and not left it there outside in the living area. I feel as if an enemy had just sabotaged my belonging, and it hurts to think that that enemy is someone I live with.
(I know you'll say it's just a pool, but imagine if it was something you've longed for, for so long..)

Oh, the feels.