♥ -Forever In My Heart- ♥

GASP!

2012-01-25T08:42:00.000+08:00

OH MA GEEE

WAICON IS THIS SUNDAY ISNT IT O.O

almost forgot ._.

haaii =)

2012-01-12T00:00:00.002+08:00

Year 2012,

COME AT ME BRUH >:]

merrybelatedxmas&happynewyear everyone ^^

Did someone say Busybee? >:)

2011-12-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

Since ive been back from Melbourne, there's been no time to sit down and blog, i kid you not. no time to read blogs, watch my tragic dramas or even reply my dear facebook friends ._.

i guess it's partly my fault at managing time but come onnn, i can survive without my computer (no pwobwem!) HENCE laptop time is at the bottom on my bottomless list of things to dooo~

IN A NUTSHELL

- working almost everyday, especcially on Sundays which has been tiring even though it's not been that busy but yknow. working everyday makes you want to go home, sleep and wake up for work again.
- hanging out with churchies
- crashed some of my love's farewell parties
- more chilling with churchies (particularly Esther) before she leaves Perth for goooodd!
- hanging out with m'boii only at nights coz we've got work during the day
- been playing Terraria, the game he's introduced me to ;) (i still dont know the aim of the game. all i know is you can dig all the way down to hell or reach heaven..? =S)
- Muffin break's xmas event which had SECRET SANTA! funny what such predictable things ppl rock up with due to last minute shopping and desperation/cluelessness of not knowing what to buy x] (ie. a box of Favourites Chocies. *OWNED!* )
- Got to catch up with my Girlies from CVC (highschool!) last time we hung out was when uni was still on, and we were GROUP studying ;) ohhhyea.
- which reminds me, RESULTS ARE OUT AND IM PLEASED TO ANNOUNCE THAT .. im satisfied with my results, thankyouverymuch! ^^
- we also got a whole day off of work amidst a week of working ESPECIALLY for Xmas Shopping, coz Nana's here and parents wants to make sure she gets a LOTTT of gifts! ;) ;)
- then caught up with my mates from uni, the Curtin crew over a Steamboat Dinner at my house YUM XD i had work the next day and they knew but they decided to make my life harder and stayed till 3am nawww <3
- xmas was just around the corner so we went for Xmas Carolling! 3 houses doesnt sound alot but whooo~ im glad it was ONLY 3 houses coz every house had a buffet of DINNER, and we had a set of SIX CAROLS to sing at each house (: good we were all jolly and merry coz that was the point! ;)
- i watched Happy Feet for the first time and ever since, ive been wiggling my butt and shuffling my feet because walking like a penguin is so durh SEXY o.o" HAHA
- then Xmas Eve, Xmas, Boxing Day and a Public Holiday came.
- and work commenced and is still commencing as we speak (:

so those were my days sum up into a a few sentences! and guess what? they're in ORDER too! but only bcoz i was looking at my organiser while typing them out (:
just so you know what's been going on in my life, for those who care of course ;]
and yes, im justifying myself coz ive not been blogging or replying anyone's texts or wall posts on my Facebook >< really sorry!

HOPEFULLY by the weekend, i wouldve gotten everything sorted out and would have less events to attend as Christmas is over, and SO! start blogging and telling you about my wonderful life again :)

no kidding, i love life.

not because it's all so good and happy,

but because i find it amazing

how i can be crying, furious and hurt one day,

then fine, smiling and awesome the next ;D

Hope you had a good xmas and a happy new year fellas! xoxo

inspaaaiiereeeeng! xD

2011-12-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

W O W.

ive just met this really talented young girl, YOUNG girl emphasized, at camp! :)
she's not even korean but she's teaching ppl how to speak korean.
she plays the piano and composes her own songs.
she plays the drums, but idk if she's going for classes or self taught.
she dances and choreographs for people.

even though her skills are amateur,
i find it pretty amazing how this girl who's ONLY in highschool, is able to do so much just because she's WANTS to do them [=

whereas i, who claim to be easily inspired, am just sitting on my bum watching and sleeping whenever i can. and look! we have such similar interests yet she's already so ahead in time! :O

fear not folks!
thanks to her, ive been remotivated to work hard and keep at my interests!! ^^

Nahh, this is no competition. it's merely one of life's many tasks id like to fulfill. But i wont be too attached to them, they wont be my number one priority. why?

Because if God calls me anytime, anywhere, i want to be ready. id want to GO, when he says ' Go! ' (;
and ill never know when that may be.

back from Melb! ^^

2011-12-06T19:20:00.001+08:00

WE'RE BAACCCKK!!

will continue posting once ive readjusted to Perth, stay tuned!

Gooooing! xD xD

2011-11-26T21:04:00.000+08:00

supposed to depart at 9pm, but Rick (sis's bf) isnt here yet!

BYE FAMILYY!!

BYE BF!!

BYEEE FRIENDS!!

BYEEE ROOOM!

BYEEE PERTH!!

To a Special Guy (:

2011-11-26T00:10:00.000+08:00

at first i didnt know what to get you.

what do guys likee??

what would guys wear??

what if you didnt like what i bought??

i wanted to get you a wallet, coz your wallet's kinda falling apart already hehe! (juuust saying xD)

but i changed my mind, and since keeping in touch would be something we'll be facing alot in the future,
i decided to buy you a webcam.
not just because you dont own one,
but because just texting and calling you isnt enough sometimes.
its easy to fake your words and emotions when your face is hidden,
but for you and i, our face reveals everything.
our emotions, our mood, our heart.

so anyways, i went to my leaders retreat,
thinking of making you something meaningful.
thinking of buying you something meaningful because the webcam is being paid by a few other ppl too,
i was thinking of making or buying something, not any friend can buy.

it striked me in retreat that i had something to bring with me all the time when i miss you.
that bracelet you gave me, i carried it with me wherever i go.
wearing it is as if im putting my Jo cap on,
you're on my mind all the time.
which makes it easier to focus on other things because you're at the back of my mind.
im not stressed from trying to avoid or push your image out of my mind in fear of not being able to focus.

i came home today and got to work (:
i knew what i had to make,
i knew what i wanted to make,
i knew what you wouldnt mind carrying around with you! ;]

i hope you'll bring it wherever you go my dear baby (: those arent juuuust words, like every other thing ive said, i meant them ^^ they're from the bottome of this fragile heart, so if you're not treating it with care .. ill sue u! xD
With God, i believe He'll lead and guide both of us epicly because He will never forsake us. He is with us, wherever we go =)

Happy 20th birthday my ossum boyfriend!

hope you had a great and enjoyable night surrounded by the manyyy mannyyy ppl who loves you [:

this one girl's love is different though.

i will miss you soooooo much while im in melbourne.

lubyou <3

nyehehe! xD

2011-11-25T17:22:00.001+08:00

firstly, id like to officially welcome back my NANA to Perth again!! this time, she'll be stayin for 3 months WOOOOOO tothe HOO right???

why am i so happy, one may ask. WELL, for one, im not close to her or anything. but having my mom's mom over is such an honor! she's such a tough lady, having the responsiblity of taking care of 6 children when her husband passed away after they were all born. (or after her 3rd/4th? cant rmbr x_x)
anws! my nana's so patient and understanding. she's so considerate and helpful! Suuuuch a wonderful lady, she is [: i thank God for being able to meet her!

secondly, id like to especially say happy birthday to my JOJO who's turning 20 tmrw! he deserves a whole post on it's own mwahaha!

2010

thirdly, ive just came back from my Mandurah Retreat with the Church Leaders and it was GOOD! we're all a step closer now, some maybe a few steps closer to each other! it was a good getaway yet hardcore brainstorming session at Mandurah :) good times good times.

and lastly, after my work at 9am-5pm as usual tmrw, im heading off to MELB at 9pm for 9days! four days for a Church Convention and another 5 days for Holiday! i hope i wont come back fatTER coz it's so daaaarn hard to lose them >"<

mandurah and melbourne!

2011-11-23T11:55:00.000+08:00

Mandurah : 2nights

Melbourne : 9days

ill be coming home from Mandurah on Friday Arvo to get ready for my boyfriend's bday party then off to Melbourne on Saturday Night! (:

im happy but sad coz im not with my Jooo :(
if i was single, id totally be like ' the longer the better! ^^'
but now that im not single, im like ' nuuuuuuuu ill miss him so much! ._. '

ive never been away for this long.
the last record was for 4 days in Mandurah
this is also my first time going to Melbourne! xD
all these years, ive only been to Sarawak, Singapore and KL.

ahhhh i have so muuuch to exploree~

till then, i biD yous fare thee well and a goood summer holiday!

BACK ON

5TH DEC ♥

MUCH LOVE!

church soon!

2011-11-14T00:38:00.000+08:00

* ive got 3 ulcers and they hurt so bad, especially when i smile =/

* im abit behind on my dance routines, thank God this week Kaotsun didnt proceed! ^^

* ive skipped Zumba last week so my fitness has been going down the road :[

* is it me or is the weather being soooo darn cloudy these days that i keep finding myself sleeping on my bed whenever im free -.-

* had three big events this month; Mom's bday, Korean BBQ, Muffin Break's Xmas Eve.

will prolly blog on.. tuesday morning when im free to update both you and my long time bro from msia about what's been happening yo! (;

Sleepii (>.<)

2011-11-10T01:10:00.000+08:00

uhhh yea.

what am i doing up again?

work at 8.30am soon ><

GOTTA TOUGHEN UP PRINCESS! >:C

Happy Birthday Momma!

2011-11-08T00:52:00.000+08:00

2009 at AraluenPark! xD

Another year older is another year wiser (:

Though we have our ups and downs with each other,

you will always be my Mother, and i, your Daughter.

Your bday last year, 2010! ^^

Thank you for always patiently filling me in on what ive missed out on, for always understanding, for always lovingly cooking and cleaning, for always being so considerate and for being the mother you are to me and everyone else (;

So may you have a very great birthday at work today mom,

2011!

and may God continue to shower you with many blessings and guidance!

ill see you laterrr for your Birthday Dinner yar!

naww you know i love you even when i dont show it ;D

LOTSA LOVE FOR YOUU TODAY MOM! <3

(aaaand on every other day of course xD)

Teeeeusday!

2011-11-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

^ if you think about it, dont you reckon with Tuesday being spelt like that,

it shouldve been pronounced as Tuuuiis-day instead of Teeeus-day? =/

Anyways! it's Mom's bday tmrw!

(gonna make a bday post for her later,

coz ive been observing her reading my blog recently.

must be my face and the colours of this blog BAHAHA ;D

jks!)

Ohh dearr me x_x"

so i wanted to make her a homemade facial i heard about from my Zumba instructor but i couldnt find the ingredients at the Oriental shop that i went to today. They didnt have Cucumber juice .. tsk tsk tsk.

(apparently, soaking a cotton pad (that's big enough to cover your face) in Rosewater, Lemon Juice & Cucumber Juice gets rid of wrinkles and spots on your face [: im not sure if it works for everyone, but it sure resulted in success with my Zumba instructor AND her mother. )

Guess imma stick with the tiramisu CAKE from San Churros ($8.50 per slice)

Because im still unsure of who or what's happening tmrw, imma list it out the way i see it .. just to give myself a peace of mind [=

Morning : Cervical Cancer Injection (forgot what it's name is called xD)

Arvo : Korean BBQ Lunch with ppl who're interested + Crashin my place with some Ps3 buttonbashintime.

Night : Mom's bday Dinner at Northbridge's Chinese Restaurant!

GOSH imma be bouncin tmrw hey,

like literally bouncin from eating so much ><

Zumba on Wednesday,

i look FORWARD to you indeed.

Work&Church (:

2011-11-03T17:15:00.000+08:00

so today ive worked from morn till 4pm,
the day started out SUPER DRY and now it's DRIZZLING WET o.O
no complains there, at least im not shivering of wicked winter's breeze! ^^

SO ive said in my last post, or rather, yesterday, that im going to start styling my hair again!

Ladies and Gents,

for today,

ive styled a braid

that's done from the bottom to the top of my head.

then i wanted to braid my fringe as well, BUT as you all know, my fringe is still pretty short so this was what it looked like.

(whoaaa my hair dye's fading at the ends of my hair! xD)

Attempted braiding of my fringe.

NOWNOW, ive always been bad with braids okayyy. especially since ive got so many layers in my hair AND when they're at the back of my head where i cant see em rawrr! i will strive to master braiding of course, because i am freee and i .. am still interested ;)

Zuuuumba!

2011-11-02T21:23:00.001+08:00

^ is all about getting your stamina going and your body moving! it is definitely an eye opener to my future part time career ;) shall look into it and learn more about it!

OTHER THAN THAT,

what have i been doing since my last post?

- hung out with Maboi in Uni while he does his paintings and i watch dramas!

- ive made progress on AYC, which was and is splendid news!

- ive hung out with Curtin/Lodge because WE'RE THE ONLY ONES ON HOLIDAYS (hellyea!)

- been practicing Kaotsun's Dance for this comin Sunday!

- had Zumba today, which was such a great hardcore sesh of salsa/tango/bollywood/hiphop/reggae dances!

- semi-cleaned my papers and books in my room so ive got more free space in my room!

- been watchin Big Bang Theory (:

hmm, i really should look up for hairstyles for work!

according to Google,

it seems like braids, curls and flowers are Summer Hair Trends [:

let's see what we can get from this ossum long hair!

spring cleaning! ^^

2011-10-30T11:55:00.000+08:00

Exams are FINALLY OVER and ive got a whoooooole bunch of things to do for the holidays before time runs out! Ill share some with yerh coz im cool like that (:

STA's HOLIDAY LIST

- Clean my House, my Toilets and my Room!

(currently in progress)

- finally get MORE involved with AYC

- finish reading the Picture Bible!

- buy gifts for Mom and Jo

- dance dance DANCE (be it at Kaotsun, Tdc or Zumba)

- watch ONE kdrama

- watch BigBangTheory!

- spend as muuuch time as i can with my Jojo

- catchups with CVC, Curtin and Church Friends

- watch a horror movie togs

- make sushi / bake a cake togs

- button bashing togs

- go to the beach togs!

(GOTTA TAN UP THOSE YELLOW LEGS)

Spring is here,

and SUMMER'S JUST AROUND THE CORNER!

time to SWEAT and MAKE things happen [;

(do you daaaare think dirty baha! <3)

Not Dumb, Just Blur. EXTREMELY blurrrhurhurrr =x

2011-10-25T22:27:00.000+08:00

Why is my life such a rollercoaster this year hahaha just saying ;]
SO! Here's what happened on my Exam Day of year 2011.

Monday Night : Made sure ive set 3 alarms to wake me up by 6.30am, so i can catch the 7.45am bus to reach Uni by 8.45am.

( better get there 15 mins early, better safe than sorry ^^ also want to wash my hair tmrw coz it's getting oily!)

PSYCHOLOGY EXAM (9AM)

when i looked at the time, it was 7.30AM.
(OOHEMGEE!!!!! IM LATE ILL NEVER MAKE IT IN TIME!!! NO TIME TO WASH MY HAIRR EWWW MY HAIIRRR!! *leaves it up in the bun i slept in ><" *)

i was ready by 8.50am but the next bus was at 8.15am. i headed to the bus stop in a hurry coz i really didnt want to miss this bus. Guess how the weather was? It was lightly rainingg, not drizzling, but raining. HEAPS of them.
(EWWW SNAILS, WORMS AND MILLIPEDES EVERYWHERE GEAAAHHH O.O!!!)

By the timme the bus arrived, i was drenched wet from head (and HAIR!!) to toes. Mind you, i was wearing thongs, so slippery dippery toes were sliding against my 2 year old thongs >< (PLEASE dont break thongs, not today, please.)

So it took me an extra 10 mins to reach murdoch station as everyone else were rushing to work. Would you believe what i saw as my bus was entering Murdoch Station? Bus 99 on it's way out from Murdoch Station, followed by a bus behind it that showed the same number, BUS 99. (WHAT?????!!!!?! O.O""" my bus...)

Trust me, my heart and jaw literally dropped as i watched this harsh reality take its toil on my day. i felt so helpless, so worried, soo scatterbrained!! i quickly turned to God, told God to please somehow get my there in time or at least let me sit for my exams coz ive been studying so hard for it and putting in so much time for it! ( my efforts .. oh my efforts T_T")

i bumped into my friend who was waiting for the next bus 99 which was to come in 10mins, which meant at 8.55am. My exam was starting in 5 minutes and there i was, 20 mins away from Curtin >_> what a great start. (haiiiii there ._.)

When the bus came, we hurried in and i quickly revised my notes as well chatted with my friend. She made the trip a little more bearable, kinda took my mind off of the time for a bit. but when i recognised the traffic light that was 10 mins away from Curtin, i snapped back into my panic mode and went ' OH CRAP MY NOTES!! >"< '

I reached Curtin at 9.20am and by speed walked painfully through the slippery weather and my hard thongs. I was initially heading to the wrong building but thank God i quickly realised it before reaching the wrong building, so i sped off to the RIGHT building, frowning and worried. When i finally got to the RIGHT building, i went up the wrong stairs and had to go back down two decks of stairs to reach my destination =.=
( why am i like this!!! why is my direction skiills SO out of whack! Please dont penalise me for being half an hour late, please dont. Help me Lord, please let me do this exam todayy! :(( )

Hoorah hoorah everybody! (:

i made it to my Exam Hall at 9.30am.

Like my day couldnt get any worse than this, my Psychology Exam was the only one that went on for an hour. That's right folks, ONE HOUR and im 30mins latee >"

Good news : i finished right on time!

Bad news : i didnt get to double check em.

What a stressful and frantic way to start my day hey?

After that, did everything returned to normal as i got ready for my second exam?

O_o

stay tuned!

A Clock for my Room!

2011-10-24T10:39:00.001+08:00

With my phone off, how am i gonna tell the time?

With my laptop off, how do i know the time?

When im sleeping and am wondering what time it is, where is the clock that lies perfectly on the blank spot of my wall?

When im studying and setting a time for myself, where do i look to for the time?

Since im forever rushing or late, maybe a clock in my room and in the bathroom's good for me (:

2 Exams tmrw wheeee!!

Hunting for a stunningly blingified clock for my room shall commence after my exams! ^^

You must be pmsing :(

2011-10-23T20:54:00.002+08:00

(^ im not the one with the period =( you've been so snappily mean lately.)

say what you want to say.
you know im not the type of person who likes failing, regretting or wasting money.

but ill tell you what i love to do! (:

1. shop for clothes, shoes, bags, BLINGS!

2. go out with my friends for a drink, a bite or a movie!

3. play truth or dare, poker or the circle of death!

4. dance dance and danncee!

5. explore the beach, a museum, a park.

6. take heaps of pictures when both my eyes arent okay!

7. lie on my bed or on the fake grass outside appreciating God's wonderful creation.

again, im not gonna deny it.

i am yet again taking a break from my lectures xD

it's okayyy everyone, chilll.

ive only got one more topic to go,

and a very interesting one to end my study actually.

it's regarding..

M O T I V A T I O N

aja aja faighting!

(Thank you for sending ppl to encourage me God,

im already feeling encouraged and motivated! Muchly appreciated.
Tysm ♥)

Happy 18th Nickocino!

2011-10-20T02:14:00.000+08:00

1. naww our big boy's all grown up now! ^^

2. you'll always be my one and only brother who knows and understands my fugliness ;]

The Best Barista in my eyes (: Now go make me my skim hot choc with - ..

3. you're my technology/price advisor -

always telling me when things are REALLY on special or just for show.

4. you durh mann mann of the fam fam! (after dad of course ;) )

very manly like me, ill say! XD

Shake shake, shake shake just SHAKE IT!

5. 'no camshame' is your best friend! (=

6. because you got your license first, thanks for always driving me around young brother!

(shaaaame on me indeed T.T)

BBQ chefs ftw!

7. The one who spends the most time with Dad, next to Mom [:

8. I think your booooming voice tops all of ours,

even beats mom's screeches and my shrieks ^^

You hogging my bed and Mel imitating a .. scorpion with pincers xD

9. Probably the most disgusting but lovable brother ever (:

In other words, Irreplaceable the Best.

10. Yes you do have tantrums and a potty mouth, but if that's how you deal with your anger, then so be it [:

(not everyone's a silent rager like me, mwahaha~)

2010 - danngg such resemblance!

so Happy 18th Birthday my lil brother!

Even though we've had terrible and i mean T-E-R-R-I-B-L-E fights with each other, it's true that blood is stronger than milk HAHA! jks!

i meant blood is thicker than water (:

what fun would it be if we didnt have you screwing around with us once in awhile right?

Ghosting BAHA!

May your many years ahead be filled with laughter and joy,

with lessons, with blessings and whatnots ^^

Keep believing and trusting in God coz i know

He has an awesome plan for you and your future.

(and i, and all of the people~)

Baloo, meet your mini Baloo (:

For those who didnt know, this is Baloo from Jungle Book!

Hope you like your gifts tonight!! ;]

See ya with hugs&kisses in a few hours time! <3

foshobru! xoxo

2011-10-19T21:50:00.000+08:00

My dear brother is turning 18 in...

ohmygawsh x_x

2HRS 10 MINS :D

BIG SMILES EVERYBODY! [:

Almost There!

2011-10-19T18:19:00.000+08:00

Chem Quizzes, pretty sure there're millions of you.

BUT we're almost done baby,

IM NEARLY DONE WOOHOO!

2 Trips to Hoyts!

2011-10-18T15:42:00.000+08:00

What's Your Number, 4.50pm

with Sam & Esther

Real Steel, 8.10pm

with Family

Monday, checked!

2011-10-18T12:04:00.002+08:00

So ive successfully checked off the 6 lectures ive planned on completing yesterday. another 6 lectures for today, gogogo! (;

studying at Murdoch.

oh nuuuuuuuuu YKNOW WHAT IVE FORGOTTEN TO DO???

TO TAAKE PICTURES WITH THE GROUP YESTERDAYY OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

-kills myself-

oh wait, we're meeting up again on Fraiday (:

-undoes killiing-

naw. yesterday was one of my best days of 2011 id say (= why, you may ask.
because us saaame lot of CVC-ians from 3 years ago, met up at one spot to study, to catch up, to play, to laugh together. ive been missing my highschool days for quite awhile now, not because i love the school, not because i love the teachers, but because i love my friends and how we've gone through highschool's ups and downs together (: i know ive only been in highschool for 2 years, but daaaanggg. look at the memories and bond we've had and still have!

Oct 2009

Jan 2010

i was glad. i was really glad. and really grateful to have been able to catch up with them again. i bet that if id just left it at the point where we're all just too busy to catch up or to see each other, we would've been like strangers walking in the same place. and i would've definitely regretted not having put in much effort just to have a chat, a call, a text or a visit.

i miss them and i love them to bits,

us bunch of Oh-Nines (:

(all pictures below were taken this year ^^)

oh ho! off to study now,

bankioh bankiohh!! xD

Shake Yer Tail Feathers!

2011-10-15T22:22:00.001+08:00

Mental Note To Self : Spring Cleaning shall commence AFTER exams.

im in such a need to get my closet sorted out man. it's looking so messy and some clothes have been sitting there for .. 3 years now o.o" IN MY DEFENSE, it's coz they're mostly hand me downs okaayy. so they're alllll moom's and are pretty old and out with the times, except the basic tank tops of course hehe! ;]
yeeeii this shows how much my fashion sense has improved since ive moved to Perth i believe!

hmm, you might or might not have realised,

that i tend to blog before i start studying.

at least now yknow,

frequent blogging -> frequent studying --> goood good girl? :)

im making it a MUST to study everyday till exams anws, so yes. pray for meee. ill need loads of encouragement, wisdom and caffeine ^^

This coming week's my study break so, here's how i shall spend them wiisely (:

Monday: Study at Murdoch with Jo and May/Gladys/Gillian/Anna.

(yay to bf and cvc peeps time!)

Tuesday: Study at Uwa, Movie with Es&Sam, Movie with Family

(yay to movie time!)

Wednesday: Study at Curtin with Yvee and City?

(yay to ketchup time!)

Thursday: Study at Uwa, (CityTime?) and Nick's Bday Dinner

( yay to Nick's 18th!)

Friday: More Studying! maybe at Murdoch with Bf? Youth at Night

( yay to bf!! can never get enough hehe! and double yay to youth!)

This is what i shall be studyin,
not that anyone would be interested LOL

My 4 units for this Semester.

- Occupational Hygiene (12 topics)

- Psychology (9 topics)

- Epidemiology (... we're allowed notes! xD)

- Chemistry (8 topics)

* OHH EXAMEXAMEXAMEXAMEXAMEXAMS *

OUR

DEAR YEAR 12s ARE HAVING THEIR EXAMS

IN 2 WEEKS TIME,

PLEASE KEEP THEM IN YOUR PRAYERS! xoxo. ;]

FailWhale.

2011-10-13T18:50:00.000+08:00

my printer ran out of ink.
besides Nick, both Mel and i have forgotten
the ink's location in the printer.
GG BABY! (:

Okay, here's the Plan.

2011-10-13T17:33:00.000+08:00

5.30PM: sleep.,
6PM: wake up and print my chemistry notes,
6.05PM: study my chem notes for an hour,
7PM: get ready for church meeting.
7PM: church
9PM: die of missinghim/tiredom/chemistry.

oh yes, i did manage to get my hair cut after all (:

Soo... (: hehehehehe!

2011-10-10T11:32:00.001+08:00

yes, as you can see, this is me posting 3 posts in a day because im nervously dreading about going into my nerdy study mode :C
exams are two weeks away but the other universities arent having their exams just yet. Hence the missing of THE exam mood and atmosphere but away with that! im not gonna blame yous for my laziness (:

truth is, i really want to do well this sem and id like to visit Uwa again. I kinda miss those nerdy times, where id faithfully go to uwa sipping on me Java Choc Chip from Muzzbuzz, all alone and isolated from the rest of the world, just to study my books, my papers, my notes, and my lecturer's voice ;]
oh hello my loyal stationeries. this is where yous come in handy again! :D

C'mon peeps!
Let's bulk up and use them up! ^^
xoxo.

LaidBack B)

2011-10-10T11:31:00.000+08:00

im taking a step back,
to breathe that same air,
to smile that same smile,
to laugh with those same people (:

because ive been wanting to improve as a person so badly,
been wanting to be that much of a good person,
that ive lost the core to my happiness along the way.

Coz yu like them fonts ;)

2011-10-10T11:09:00.000+08:00

^ yeaa you like it dontcha ;) i do. ^^

so the girls and i were having this discussion about Relationships, based on this book they've read called ' I Kissed Dating Goodbye'.

1. Everyone likes being chased, even guys. - This would mean that the guy is more prone to taking the girl for granted because she was the one who initiated, not he. He can just sit back and relax because he knows that it's the girl who wants him, not vise versa. If the guy was chasing the girl FIRST, wouldnt you think he'd super respect her bacause he didnt want her to leave him? He'd also treat her like a precious treasure he's caught, because he's found AND got something he likes.

so If a decent looking girl likes a guy first, the guy probably wouldnt mind going for her coz guys likes being chased too. - Beinng in a relationship because you dont mind or because you like the person will tell you how you're going to treat or how you will be treated by him/her.

2. That's why you get into the relationship! to try it out, to see if it will work. it only gets serious once you're engaged, coz that way you know it's a serious commitment in life and you know you wont want to change you mind. that's what engagements and marriages are for! - .. it kinda makes sense. For most, this is where you can call it 'gaining experience' first i guess (:

3. This is why you dont date when you're young, coz you dont know if it will last when you're still meeting new people everytime. - truee, but! i like to refer to number 4, 5 and 6.

4. Love is a decision, not a feeling. So when you say you love someone, you commit and spend the rest of your life with them. There's no such thing as love as a feeling. Love should be something you can control, not something you cant control because people change all the time. - coz Love spells T I M E [:

5. Date only when you're really sure you can live with that person for the rest of your life. - noted! ^^

6. Most importantly, the CORE of dating should be on God; it should be God centered. Because that way, God can still work through the both of you, because that way, God is not being shut away while you're in a relationship. - YEABOI! >;D

7. It is very easy to sway from God when you enter a relationship, especially when your faith is still weak because it is difficult to commit to both at the same time. It is also easy to drift away from your friends when you enter a relationship. What if things doesnt work out and you're left with no friends? what if. - so we should help one another grow right? we're are in the same boat after all (:

8. Always pick the First best, not the second best. - How?? yknow that i know that there's always someone better out there. Guess that's what it means to be C O M M I T T E D. or just stop searching and be content with what you chose [; your decision, your life.

9. It's always better to be with someone who loves you more. -Wont that be a one-sided effort then? =/

agree or disagree?

you know they're true ^^

ahhh the ups and downs of entering or not entering a relatioonship :)

Here goes (:

2011-10-05T13:13:00.001+08:00

so loads of things happened before AND after i turned 19. let's just say ive never encountered such a rough start into a new age [=

SUNDAY: Bday Dinner with my parents and my NB's Chinese Restaurant where i had my 2 favourite dishes omnomnom! After dinner i wanted allllllll of us to have a night of Karaoke at Utopia, but they werent up for it. they're too tired. we ended up playing pool at Pot Black instead (:

Japanese Beancurd!

Butter Egged Prawn!

Honey Peppered Beef!

MONDAY: had my First Group Presentation for my Psychology unit. God's ever merciful, lending us his courage and strength that our presentation went as smoothly, as lively and as engagingly as what we prayed for. (if you've all remembered, preparing for this pres wasnt easy : A Day Like No Other
Also had my last Dance Class at TDC for the term =C at first my mom said that i could continue next term's classes if i could find a transport to and fro. now she's changed my mind and told me " enough with dancing! " even when ive found someone who's willing to drive me back and fro. God must be testing my fire for dance, i shant give up! ;]
( i hope to at least go to Kaotsun's classses on Sunday, gotta search for my own transport then. public transport, here i come! i hope Kaotsun's got some nearby! ><)

TUESDAY: tuesdays and wednesdays are our days, Bf and I (: because i had a test to study for, i decided to have a Study Date with him! Smart ay! Studyyyyyy during the whooooooooole day was my plans for both of us, but my good friend called up and asked for help ^^ a friend in need is a friend indeed! so i did her a favour by paying city a visit to grab something, then finally headed to Murdoch to study. While at Murdoch, i felt the urge to call my special friend and so i did! we had suuuch a good catchup session, that dear bf had to keep reminding me to study coz we were chatting all that much haha!
( 'all it took was for that someone to reach out their hand to the one in need ' ill never forget our conversation, ever. because i really dont want to forget what we mean to each other, because taking that one step can change someone's life forever. )

WEDNESDAY: was my Date of Birth! the day went by like any normal day though. i went to uni, sat for my test, had a handful of bday wishes and hugs and my phone was spammed with bday msgs from Facebook. Just when i was gonna let this special day of mine slip away like every other days, my friend said " okay steph! you're gonna invite us to your house tonight and we'll play street fighter and pictionary kay! send your texts out now! see you tonight at yours at 8pm ;) kthxbai! " at first i wasnt sure about it coz it's such a last minute plan and i wasnt sure everyone would come anyways, considering how it's a uni week and it's a weekday. " dude! everyone can make it, just text them NOW! XD " and so, i did (: not everyone turned up, but hey! i had two surprise visitors and i was really touched by them just being there with me on my 19th bday (:

( only thing that ruined my night was me spilling my drink on the carpet sighs, im such a klutzz!! =.= )

THURSDAY: had work till 1pm then i got ready for RED BLOOD DONATION WOOOT! so excited and i was right to be! a group of us from church headed to Caro to give our blood, it was such a fun and happy experience! the nurse in charge of taking care of me was very experienced and friendly (: we spoke about having a sweet tooth for sweet treats, about low iron levels coz my mom has them, about exercising, about working. she was really encouraging, kept saying " you're doing really well steph! just a couple more minutes kay! " " you're almost there huns, you're doing so well! " i was really having a good time that the pinch, the injection, the extraction, nor the losing of blood never got to my mind! i was more happy to be able to give my blood and know that it'll help someone out there who needs it more than i do. Thank you God, im ever so grateful.

(Lesson for that day: NEVER have tomato juice with chocolate muffin ew! or never try tomato juice fullstop. x_x )

FRIDAY: MSU ball! ive been anticipating for this day since last year when my church friends went without me. my goal for the whole year was to go to MSU ball, with or without someone i love OR being asked to a ball coz ive never been asked to one ^^ (mind you, i was the one who asked x to the year 12 ball so that definitely isnt being asked to the ball) i thought about what to wear to the ball for 3 consecutive nights and finally agreed to one on that Friday (: before msu, i had my chem lab that went on longer than usual as it was a pretty long and complicated lab. i finished later than i thought i would've finished, and saved time getting home by hitching a ride from lovely bf. when i saw what he was wearing, i paused. his shirt looked more semi-formal whereas my dress looked formal. when we agreed on this shirt he was to wear to msu, i totally didnt realise how semi-formal it looked.
Here was our conversation during our ride back to my house.
Bf : so didchu miss me? :D
me: nope! i saw you last night and im seeing you today haha!
Bf : ._.
anws! i had to re-decide on my outfit and by the time we reached home, ive decided (: we were running really late so i had to rush like the superhero Flash ;] i was really happy about my outfit, my hair and my make up!
when my sis saw me in the dress she said " woww (: " <3
when my bro saw me in the dress he said " whoa, nice dress [: " yayy <3
when the bf saw me in my dress, he said " you look like a peacock xD " ._.
on our way to Msu, were both unhappy about each other being unhappy that neither of us felt like going to the ball unhappy. we decided to talk it out before we went for the ball, so we did! after we settled it, i looked like a mess that i couldnt face the cameras. we decided to have an Indian dinner with Champagne and watch Johnny English at a nearby cinema.

my hair .. my dress.. my make up .. my long awaited ball .. at least now i know that i shouldnt have pushed him into going to something he doesnt like. it's not fair on him. my new goal for msu is to go to msu with or without someone who wants to go, fullstop (:

SATURDAY: worked the whoooole day and wanted to pay GMC a visit, but i havent had time to sit with my family for dinner throughout the week so i decided to earn some brownie points [= we went to Nero's to dine, i had soooo much fries that im so sick of potatoes now. i literally went on a potato frenzy! @.@
i got home feeling so sick but Nick and i felt like Street Fighter, and Street Fighter was what we did! it was fun, there was no competition, it was purely friendly and entertaining, it was an amazing feeling (: my bro can be such a nice guy at times, AT TIMES ;]

SUNDAY : Had to attend the church's morning service to be installed as 2012's Evangelism Committee. we also had Holy Communion where i very intelligently swallowed the wine and cracker through the wrong hole, leading to a continous life or death choke back to my seat at the far back of the church -.- well done sta, very well done. i went home and felt sooooo low and down that my soul sister suddenly texted and told me she felt low and down too o.O about different reasons of course. so we decided to chill together, to work our things out together coz two brains are better than one. i felt such a strong urge to pig out on San Churros Chocolate Sundae filled with 3 scoops of milk, white and dark chocolate respectively, that sat on a chocolate brownie with chocolate waffles and chocolate syrup at the top. yea, INDULGEMENT FTW. but nahh, it was too farr so! we settled for Apple Cider and Season 6 of House (: although our heart was still heavy, it was a good afternoon away from things, away from our problems, as we watch House himself with HIS probs haha!

and that was my week folks!

if you managed to read everything that happened, kudos to you! you deserve several pats on your back hehe!

what'd i tell ya! good and bad things happened before and after i turned 19, and lemme tell ya. they didnt usually when i was 18.

my days were usually gooooooooooooodly okay, unlike those past few days.

so im guessing turning 19 is gonna be an interesting year?

off from my happy and awesome 18

to my

interesting rollercoasterie and dramatic 19 <3 (:

am i ready?

with God, i sure am.

BRING IT.

will post more about ...

Brother's Night,

Asia Cockatil and

my 19th Bday sooon k! ;]

This is why i want a Punching Bag.

2011-09-27T12:54:00.001+08:00

ohhh steph, you sound so fob! you're so cuuutee hehehhe!
naww so fob omg you're so cuuutee!
im in love with you're fobiness ay, so cuuutee!!

I Need a Haircut =C

2011-09-27T12:28:00.000+08:00

but im feeling poor at the moment.

and i cant be stuffed going.

and i dont want my scalp to be red during Msu's Ball.

and i wouldnt want my hair to be too short or thin for styling (:

I definitely do need a haircut though.

just thought you'd like to know..? xD

BAHAHA!

A Day Like No Other.

2011-09-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

1. Slept during sermon - regretted not having a challenge for the week :C
2. Drove to Uni - Started Raining = Got screamed at for listening to two different instructions =.=
3. Got to uni - Had suuuch a good plan to study and get things done with Assignment mates - Brought the wrong thumbdrive. (it looked like mine omgee kill meee)
4. No point staying in uni without everything - went home to fetch it - told friends ill meet them in 2 hours
5. Bus was irregular coz it's a Sunday - friends and i agreed we'll call and skpe each other instead of meeting at uni (our presentation's tmrw)
6. Got Home - searched high and low for my thumbdrive - nowhere to be found (so it must be in church! :O)
7. Told friend and she said it might be at her house - She lives close so i was getting ready to leave to fetch it
8. Friend called and said the thumbdrives at her house arent mine - my thumbdrive is still at church
9. Okay, i know someone who lives near church! - called her but she's busy.
10. i returned to my group mates only to bring them bad news. Ive let my group mates down - told them what happened - felt so angry/sad/disappointed
10. Then one of my Group mates decided to call me.

Friend: Hello steph!
Me: Hey oh nooo im so sorry ill find a way to get it asap -
Friend: STEPH id like us to pray yea?
Me: what? oh pray.. *dazzled* um..
Friend: Yea id like to pray for you. Let's pray
Me: oh wow ..thanks =/
Friend: Father Lord we just commit our time unto Your hands. We know that you're always there for us, we'd just like to commit Steph unto your hands as her thumbdrive is at church and she is having a bad day. Lord we know that you will take care of us, and that You will guide us and lead us in our presentation. Please comfort Steph and let her know that even when times are hard, when everything seems to fall apart, please let her know that You will guide and lead her. Just comfort her and let her know that You are there for her, that you will guide her. We leave our presentation unto Your hands Lord, we trust that you are always there for us. In Jesus Christ name we pray, Amen.

There i was, filled with frustration,
anger and disappointment to ..

touched and loved.

If you were in my shoes, would you feel as overwhelmed and touched as i was? would u feel embraced by God's comfort through her prayer, like i did? would you have felt all your anger and worries melting away, just as mine was?

i cannot thank God enough, for simply touching her heart to pick up that phone of hers, to call and pray for me. God knew what i needed, God KNEW what His child needed. In her most difficult time, she needs to be reminded that He is there watching and waiting for her to depend on Him, and in her most difficult time, she also needs to know that her alone is not enough. She needs a friend to help her stand, she needs a friend to until the end..

Uni On A Sunday.

2011-09-25T15:01:00.000+08:00

coz im studious like that ;] nah jks, for my group presentation tomorrow. hope all goes well!

so i drove my family and i to uni, it was raining. i absoloutely HATE driving when it's raining. it gets everyone on their edege, worried, hay-wired, panic mode and super uber paranoid =/ dad went ballistic. geez louisee take a chill pill ole man rah!

Last week.
Monday: Uni
Tuesday: Assignment at Timezone & Church Practice
Weds: Uni & Group Meeting till 10pm
Thursday: Work & Church Practice
Friday: Uni, Brother's Night and Asia Cocktail!

Here's to another busy week, then it looks fine for the week after!

This week.
Monday: Last dance class for the Term :O my friend has gladly offered to join and drive me to and from dance, so hopefully! parents will let me continue :)
Tuesday: Hardcore study date! for my test on weds.
Weds: Test. Birthday! WAS gonna make an event, but i couldnt decide who to invite, so guess what! there will be no bday celebration kthxbai!
Thursday: Blood Donation - for the first time whee!
Friday: MSU BALL <3

Off to do my assignment now,

shoulda brought candyyyyyyyyy :<

....

omgee lameeechops.

i brought the wrong thumbdrive along.

back home i go

wut a bad day. =C

at least last night and this morning was marvelously good.

give and take i guess,

there's always a balance :]

Woo!! ^^

2011-09-19T12:20:00.000+08:00

StudyBreak!

2011-09-18T14:30:00.002+08:00

so ive lost the two kilos ive gained ever since hitting my lightest record, now to work on burning em fats till im 3kgs lighter! fight fight fiiighting! (:

been busy with Church,

been busy with Uni assignments,

been busy with dear Boyfriend,

been busy making sure i get enough Rest

coz my eyes gets red when i lack of sleep

(its got a habit, like everone else, of drying up when im sleep deprived :C)

been busy with Dance and Exercise (Y).

putting those aside,

God has been so good to me and those around me!

He's been with my friends who're going through what ive been through that is, YEAR 12.
He's been with that woman who's been fighting her cancer for a few years now, they've found NEGATIVE amount of cancer cells in her body, which means time for recovery!

He's lead an art advisor to my boyfriend, giving my boyfriend inspirational steps towards his tough future.
He's touched my brother's heart to join and mingle with his dear group at youth again.
He's helped me comfort my friend who was in need of advice and encouragement.
He gave me the courage and wisdom to come out and pray for others, to make sure they're okay.
He's been guiding my dear friend so well, as he's entering a heavy responsibility God has called him to.
He's given my friend the heart to want to serve in an area so suited to her personality, that i feel so encouraged everytime she .. serves.
and God has continously spoke to me, through my Daily Bread (:

like these!

Our love for God can be measured by our love for others.

When God permits suffering, He also provides Comfort.

2011-08-27T22:46:00.000+08:00

OH NO.

ive grown so fat,

from last last night's carbonara,

last night's laksa and

tonight's Father's Day Dinner out.

IMMA GO ON A DIET

yes, coz I NEED TO GO ON A DIET

so whatchu waiting for? LET'S GOO ON A DIETT!!

HARDCORE MISSION TO LOSE WEIGHT,

COMMENCING

NOW!

ooh!

2011-08-25T21:22:00.000+08:00

Korean Boy band,

I N F I N I T E

ihearttheirdanceroutine

in this video!

Ikimasu.

2011-08-22T00:30:00.002+08:00

Andale, andale

It's your boy Toby MacWith the Group 1 CrewWhat you got, bingWhat you got girl? Come onI've heard life is like a box of sweet delightsBut in reality every day is a fightSo we hold on to the promiseThat things happen for reasonsWe may not understand itBut faith keeps us believin'And I know that we can make itWith faith in our hearts, we can face itAny mountain that comes our wayWe can moveChorusThere's never a right timeTo get up and live lifeYou only got one try(Andale, andale)So take what you've been givenAnd make timeTo turn someone's day brightAnd change how we live life(Andale, andale)The future's what we make itSo let's go(To the beat y'all)So let's go(To the beat y'all)So let's go(One life, one world y'all)The future's what we make itSo let's go(To the beat y'all)So let's go(To the beat y'all)So let's go(One life, one world y'all)The future's what we make itSo let's goWe in a time when sun don't shine in all placesTypically nose to the grind just to make itTake the same old, see the same facesSayin' it's the hand we've been dealt so we take itBut if life's what we make itI'ma turn the world aroundMake the poor people famousMake the B the new A listGive your Facebook page a new face-liftAnd every status you postWill compliment who you are
The whole world's dark While you shine like a star
Then bring hatred to an endAnd watch the honorOf our generation come alive againChorus x2Yeah, we got brighter days aheadI know you got dreams, I believe in themI know you got problems too, forget them'Cause life's too short so let's beginYep, see it's all about youYou are the change the world needs to view'Cause when we change the world changes tooAnd it's a small world after all'Cause I got something that'll change the worldMoms to the dads, every boy and girlAll I wanna do is show ya how it could beIf ya open up and let your spirit freeSo let's go, let's go, let's go, let's goLet's go, let's go, let's goToby Mac, Group 1 Crew

Yesterday's DailyBread.

2011-08-21T14:56:00.000+08:00

' Gossip, slander, boasting, bitterness, greed, abuse, anger, selfishness and revenge all close the hearts of those around us to the message of God through us. '

Let's live for God.

Face my challenges head on. I dont wanna avoid it coz avoiding only stunts my spiritual growth.

Pray and Rely on God whenever and wherever because He is always watching.

Always. With Us. God is.

:'] okay.

Hello Again ^^

2011-08-17T02:01:00.001+08:00

13 FACTS.

1. i like to be CAPABLE of as many things as i can.
2. i sleep A LOT, to get rid of hunger or anger.
3. im a SILENT rager/weeper.
4. i SPEED TALK alot when im happy.
5. i tend to think of DRAMAS that's never or going to happen, who knows.
6. coz im CREATIVE like that, random thoughts and ideas just keeps coming.
7. i OBEY unless i dont know the reason behind it.
8. im a FOOD+SAUCE ADVENTURIST, except towards insects/livefishes etc.
9. i get easily ADDICTED to most animes, games, cartoons, songs or dramas when i start.
10. i go JELLY towards creepy crawleys.
11. i loove DRESSING UP.
12. i love IMPROVISING my hair, my dance and my harmonizing.
13. i ... am finally tired woohoo ~! <3

with a LessThan and a Dash next to Three.

2011-08-17T01:15:00.000+08:00

it comes and goes.

so hardcore study and
hardcore dance,
it's time to lose more kilos again.

let's welcome busy littly missy [:

Crazy Weather o_o"

2011-08-15T13:10:00.000+08:00

got to leave for uni innn... 15 minutes but it's been sooooooo windy for the past half an hour =S

That's why ive put my fringe up,

TAKE THAT YOU CRAZY WIND!! ;3

got dance classes tonight,

looking forward to it ^^

have a great day fellas&bellas!

FoundHer! ^^

2011-08-07T14:37:00.000+08:00

Waicon 2012!

Get ready for ...

My Cosplay (:

2 more hours.

2011-08-07T13:44:00.000+08:00

MUST.

TIDY.

MY.

ROOOM!!

Wines are mostly yuck, unless they're sweet.
Ohh hear this Sweet Tooth talk ;]

i feel so lazy though.. =C

It's Sunday again.

2011-08-07T13:09:00.000+08:00

Stumbled across this while searching what it really means to

Go With The Flow.

1. Realise that you cant control everything.

2. Become aware.

3. Breathe.

4. Get Perspective.

5. Practice.

6. Baby steps.

7. Laugh.

8. Keep a journal.

9. Meditate.

10. Realise that you cant control others.

11. Accept change and imperfection.

12. Enjoy life as a flow of change, chaos and beauty.

Eww to Midnight Snacking.

2011-08-05T02:52:00.000+08:00

DONT EAT THIS AT NIGHT YUUCK!!!
>"<

ohmygosh, i feel so sick now x_x

Smiiilee.

2011-08-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

To my first Psychology Assignment,

Here.

Ai.

Coooooooooome! <3

Much love, ThisGirl.

Calmage.

2011-08-04T20:35:00.000+08:00

Starting with Number 1, 2 and 3.

" Be Gone."

it's been a shaky month, but great things has blossomed in between [:

2011-07-31T14:49:00.001+08:00

i shall make a quick to do list because i might forget eek!

- Psychology Assignment

- Catch up on Chem Lecture and Psych Lecture

- Brief reading for Chem Test tomorrow

- Finish blogging about Camp - 2 more posts.

- Brother's Night, ideas ideas IDEAS!

- Shop for 3 Gifts!

- Start Daily Devotions!

okay now that ive got that outtt of the way, pew pew!! i feel alot better :)

last week's been great and bad, mmm how should i sum it up for yas [=
my head's a bit scattered atm, so please pardon meh! first thing i did today was blog about camp for 4 hours straight -.-

LAST WEEK.

M: went to uni, had first class of dance. it was refreshing and fun!

T: got ready for lecture, but found out a few minutes before that ive done this lecture before. Thank God baby was driving (:

W: went for my tute which ended in half an hour XD caught up with some friends ive not seen for awhile.

Jammed with drums at baby's after. Ced came along and found his new passion for drums LOL XD

Bf and i had dinner at his. We watched Transformers 3 at the cinemas, for the first time.

T: Worked in the morning and studied in the arvo, went to see baby at his work to collect my phone.

(id left in his car but it dropped on the floor, so he didnt know till i came to collect it unexpectedly FAILL!)

F: finished uni late, baby came to visit and stayed for 3 hours at uni so he can send me home.

All that was drama-edited hehehe! x]

just so you dont go

" ohh her life's all good now. everything's happy and in place."

not really, no.

but im accepting however it goes :]

TODAY,

it's been a full day and ive still not spoken to my parents =/

OF COURSE i intend to speak to them again, but atm.

too many things to do,

dad's still a bit grumpy,

mom must be waiting for me to speak to her.

bro's okay now, thank God for that.

i love my sister to bits, always by my side,

always forgiving and willing to listen to both sides.

ON A SIDENOTE! ^^

Ive got my room all to myself now,

privacy's all mine,

have to re-arrange and find my missing clothes,

can exercise in my room again,

get to dance to my beats and heats!

get to use my speakers to my favourite songs,

get to usee my whooooole bed and unfold my loong bodayy.

Life is back to how it used to be,

and now that it is,

it's time to work my way up again.

Starting from me.

GO!

Met Snoopy.

2011-07-31T14:49:00.000+08:00

Because of Snoopy,

ive got a good photo of my family and i working,

ive got pictures with my Nana,

Got to learn the arts of making these rice dumplings in bamboo leaves from Nana!

- im not afraid to take pictures with my black teeth!

- ive realised how strong my sisterhood bond is!

- ive never seen sooooo much laksa in my life!

- us three siblings got to jam to a FULL song together!

- i got to eat a SanChurros sundae meant for 2, alllll by myself YAY!

- we got to see animals hump ;]

- i got to go to the zoo with my boy!

- got to promote my undies woo!

- got to have pictures with the couples! [;

and i got to unleashed my inner LIONNESS RAWRR!

so thank you, Snoopy (:

Never got to watch your cartoons but

im glad i got to meet you.

Anyong. Goodbye. Adios <3

I want to be someone succesful! xD Why? What does Success really mean? =/

2011-07-31T11:55:00.001+08:00

SUCCESS.

is it money? family? good grades? good job? fame? being awesome? ruling the world? marrying someone rich? being a doctor? being a priest? travelling around the world? winning?

Success

Obedience + Faithfulness

Success

Jeremiah Chapter ONE!

" Do not say 'I am too young.' "

"You must go to everyone i send you to and say whatever I command you to."

" Do not be afraid"

" I am with you and will rescue you"

Suffering is a part of life. The only way we learn and truly grow, is when we SUFFER and OVERCOME that suffering. Know that we cant do it alone, you can try and of course, we'd like to think that it's better if we give it a try first right? if we dont depend on anyone, we can be strong on our own two feet. God thinks otherwise though. He WANTS us to depend on Him because there are some things we just caaaaant overcome on our own, that's why they're such things called Suffering and Challenges. KNOW that we're not alone. God's hand is always there, ready to hold, ready to help.

God is our Father and

What do Fathers do?

They look out for you, protect you, care for you, looooove you unconditionally.

Dont be afraid to ask him for help. Why are you afraid?

If you go to your parents and tell them you're hungry, what will they do?

They'll give you a loaf of bread coz they dont want you starving to death!

so! Do not fear, my dear siblings,

We are God's Children and

God, Our Father, will provide and teach us along the way.

Here's a 'new' word to learn for the day peepos!

-> CONSECRATE <-

to declare or Set Apart As Sacred.

The question is,

Will you do it?

Can you do it?

If you think you're not ready,

WHEN will you ever be ready?

Will you consecrate

YOUR LIFE

to a blank contract from God,

you dont know what will happen or

where your life will take you.

The only thing you can cling on to is,

your faith and hope in believing that whatever it is, it will be okay.

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ¹² Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. ¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. ¹⁴ I will be found by you,” declares the LORD, “and will bring you back from captivity.^[b]

Jer 29

HAHA retards (:

GOD. WILL. BE. THERE. FOR. ME.

I WILL BE OKAY.

THIS WILL BE AN AWESOME JOURNEY WITH GOD.

WITH GOD.

¹⁹ They will fight against you but will not overcome you, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the LORD. - Jer 1

See?

Our journey with God is not meant to be easy,

said the Bible [=

I Cant Predict The Future. But would i want to know what my future looks like?

2011-07-31T10:48:00.001+08:00

Our past influences our future.

Imagine you're like a normal tiiineh grain of sand, amongst all the other grains of sand. Watch this video and keep reading hehe!

⁹ Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

Joshua 1: 9

If you place yourself in the hands of an Awesome creator, Amazing things can happen.
Our Awesome Creator has a great plan for you and me and everyone else, only if we allow Him to work in us. Are you ready for it to happen?

That is all MWAHAHA.

pretty straight forward yesh? ;]

God can take the Ordinary

and change it to

something EXTRAordinary!

(have faith my fellow cupcakes! ^^)

tadaa! like this Jewish fella!

WHO WOULD HAVE KNOWN LOOOLL (: (:

*applause!!*

something ordinary into something extraordinary.

Then we were asked to plan out a Timeline of our Life, kind of like a time of Reflection. Here were the questions asked. What does your Life Timeline look like? o_O

List these out

- Major Events in Your life, both good and bad.

- Times you fondly remember.

- Times you wish to forget.

Good : Being a part of people's life. It's an incredible feeling to know that you can make a difference in their life. that you matter, that you've impacted their journey; that you've been in a chapter of their story. oh hello there hehe! (: (:

(God feels like that too. Our Father should be the center of our life. just as WE are,

the apple of His eye. )

Bad : When i've lost or drifted away from my loved ones or those close to me; be it through death or lost of touch, it hurts when i walk pass them on the streets and go " hey i once used to know him/her, but now we're like strangers of a different world.. coz we've drifted. Just like that ._."

(imagine how God feels about those who's parted and drifted from him :'(

them who were once and still IS, His Children. )

Fond memories : When we celebrate Chinese New Year or Birthdays, or Parents' Day. That's why we celebrate them! To remember and make them a day like no other! ;]

(always thank God for Jesus' birth, for without Jesus,

who else dyou know,

who's holy and pure,

who'd save US from our sin?)

Bad memories: Times when i felt so lost, when my world seemed to be falling apart .. over the littlest things that now seem so unimportant.

Back then, my world 'crashed and burned'

over my addiction to Anime during dinner,

over my Frustration of not being able to go for Dancing lessons while i was still young and flexible,

over my Embarrassment when all eyes turned to me whenever i was placed in the spotlight,

over my Anger of not being able to hang out with my friends because they ALL live so far away, or rather, i lived far faar away from everyone else.

over my Negativity towards my ownself,

over my Disappointment in my own Weaknesses.

(That's why in the Bible,

God keeps reminding us to not be attached to EARTHLY things.

Money CanT buy us happiness and

Money is also the Root of all Sins.

Clothes and other superficial materialistic things here on earth are of

NO VALUE

when we enter God's kingdom that lasts forever;

for eternity.)

so What do you think your Journey means?

What is its reason?

Looking back, i am glad everything happened or didnt happen. All these events pointed me towards God, stressing that it's important to abide by His word and commandments, so i can find peace and joy IN Him.

These were all done to mould and shape me,

to get me ready for whenever He shall use me (:

Always remember that,

Whatever that's happened in the past,

has shaped the Person You've become today.

What are we. Why are we here. What do you want from us.

2011-07-25T14:03:00.000+08:00

We are made for the same purpose.

1. For God's Pleasure.

[2Cor 3: 1-5]

Verse 1-4: "Father of compassion" " God of all comfort " ".. who comforts us in all our troubles " " so that we can comfort those in any trouble "

verse 5 : We shouldnt receive all the credits of being competant because our competence comes from God.

We MUST rely on God and His strength to find our purpose in life. Relying only on our gifts and talents to serve Him isnt enough, we must go deeper than that and worship God, our Creator and Provider, for His many blessings and love.

2. For His Glory

Like David in Psalm 57: Even amongst his fears and turmoils, David still talks about praising and glorifying God.

Praise the Lord at ALL times, praise him when you're happy, praise him when you're sad and angry because he controls all things. There IS a reason to why you're going through, what you're going through. And always remember, no matter how hard it seems to overcome this trial or challenge, God will pull you through whatever He puts you through. He'll NEVER forsake you coz He is your FATHER, and YOU are, His CHILD.

3. For His Purpose

[Gen 1:28] " be fruitful and increase in number " " fill the earth and subdue it "

Subdue = Overcome.

[Matt 28: 18-20] " go and make disciples of all nation " " teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you " " surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age "

Listen to God's promise.

When God promises something, He STICKS to it. like a REAL MAN! YEAAAAABOI! =D

So we need to care about the things around us because it's where we have to overcome and tell the people about God's love. To save them before Jesus comes back.

4. For His Delight

[Romans 12: 1-2] " your bodies " " holy and pleasing to God - this is your true and proper worship " " Do not conform to the pattern of this world "

[1 Corinthians 6: 12-20] " The body is not meant for sexual immorality but for the Lord " "Whoever is united with the Lord is one with him in Spirit." " Flee from sexual immorality " "You are not your own, you were bought at a price " "Therefore honour God with your bodies "

Stand your ground and know what's right or wrong. Even if you dont know if it's right or wrong, ask yourself. Is this what God wants you to do? how about Jesus, His son. What would Jesus do.

5. Its Not About You

[1 Peter 3] " your beauty should not come from outward adornment " "rather it should be that of your inner self " " unfading beauty of a quiet and gentle spirit " " of great worth in God's sight "

it's what's INSIDE that really matters, LOOK WITHIN.

we should also learn to accept ourselves as God's wonderful creation because if we cant accept ourselves, how are we gonna find out what our purpose in life is??

Look at yourself in the mirror and tell God in all seriousness "

Thank You for creating Me (:

Are You Willing? Are You Ready? Can You Do it?

2011-07-25T12:03:00.001+08:00

Devotion 1

Am i willing to decide, in advance, that i will do what God asks me to do, no matter what it is?

Do you honestly believe that God made you for a specific purpose?

What gets you angry?

What gives you energy in life?

What are some of your greatest failure?

i can say i am willing now, but when things arent going my way and when all seems to be falling apart, im sure ill say no, i am not willing. this is something id like to change. i definitely believe that God made me and you for a reason, ive always believed there's a reason behind everything and anything. There're no such things as coincidences. My energy comes from serving God with all i have and being able to use the gifts He's blessed me with; dancing, smiling, talking, laughing, piano, drums, singing, humming etc. My greatest failure in life is not being able to appreciate what i have in life until it's gone. not taking it while i could have, and wondering what could've happened if i striked.

it's different now, ive made a note to myself to do and live life to the fullest. to not live in regrets. if i want to do something, id rather do it and fail than never to have given it a try. If God asks me to leave and do something for Him, i pray that ill be able to do it. Because God our Father knows what's best for us, He'll hold our hands throughout our journey. Because He is our Father, and what do Fathers do?

They take care and love you, they want the best for you. Our Father will protect us, coz WE are His children.

Devotion 2

Character or Career?

Does it have to be a choice?

If it came down to it, which would i choose?

What makes a Godly character?

Are these character traits evident in my life?

Does it have to be a choice hey? i believe that Character is something WE should work on, and leave our Career to God. Would God give you a career you wouldnt like? That's doubting God and His choice, His plans for us. Why would He want to give us a career we wouldnt enjoy?

He knows us even when we're in our mother's womb, He knows what we want to say even before we speak them out. God keeps telling us that He has a plan for us, a plan to PROSPER us, not to harm us. is that not clear enough? so if you want to do something now, be it hairdressing or being a doctor, if you earnestly pray to God about it, i believe that He will reveal His plans for you when you are ready, and trust me, He KNOWS when you are ready. He has a biiiiiig plan that we humans arent supposed to understand, as it's to complex. He's the God that created men, that created the earth and all living and non living things. The God that created heaven and hell, something we cant see or possibly imagine what it looks like.

So back to my point, WE should work on our character so God can show us His plans for us when we're ready (:

[22] But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, [23] gentleness and self-control.

-Galations 5

Are these evident in my life? Sometimes they are, sometimes they arent. This is why we fall so easily, coz we're all sinners. When God gives you an opportunity in life, anyyy opportunity, regarding studies, future, family, love, friends or being a testimony for Him, are you willing to go for it? or are you going to give it a miss .. forever. It only comes once. and know that whatever you have here on earth, is temporary. What lies beyonnd earth in Heaven, lasts for eternity. E-T-E-R-NITY.

Devotion 3

Short story about Samson & Delilah : (Judges 13-16)

Samson was a very strong man with long hair. He was given an incredible power to protect the people of Israel, because they always seem to be in trouble. The Israelites would always triumph in wars because of Samson's incredible strength given by God. One day he met a girl named Delilah and fell in love with her. Delilah was bribed by Israel's enemy, to find out Samson's weakness. So Delilah went home and asked Samson about his incredible strength, about his weaknesses. Samson did not want to tell her so nights passed by and Samson kept lying to Delilah about his weaknesses. Delilah got angry and finally one night, she got him drunk and told Samson that if he truly really loved her, he'd tell her what his weakness is. So Samson having been intoxicated, told her that his strength came from his hair. If it was cut off, his strength would disappear and he would be as weak as any other man. So delighted Delilah quicklyy cut his hair off, tied him up and called the enemy. The enemy took him away and true enough, he was as weak as any other man alive. They tortured him and tied both his arms to two pillars while all of Israel's enemies and Delilah were having a party of victory in front of him. Samson prayed to God and asked one last time, for the incredible strength he once had. God granted him the strength for one more last time, and with it, Samson took down the two pillars and killed all of Israel's enemies in the building, including himself.

What was Samson's purpose in life?

What were his distractions?

What can we learn from his life?

Samson was appointed with the incredible to save the Israelites from harm. He made a mistake of letting out his weakness to Delilah, but because he understood God's purpose for creating and blessing him with that incredible strength, he saved Israel one more last time even if it meant ending his own life. That was God's purpose for Samson.

So we should check ourselves for the gifts God has blessed us with, with the hands, eyes, legs and body God has given to us and search for God's purpose for us in our life. Search for our reason. What we can do for Him, what He wants us to do for Him. If we dont acknowledge our own strengths and weaknesses, how are we going to serve God with what we have? we dont even know what we have or dont have. Be ready my fellow friends, know, acknowledge and be true to yourself and God. Stop putting yourself down and know that we're all unique in our own ways.

Devotion 4

How am i trusting God in my life right now?

How is God shaping me right now?

Am i living by faith or am i in control?

How does my life reflect the purpose of the cross?

Am i one to take things as they are. Coz ive told you, i believe everything happens for a reason. You can try your best to change something that's going to happen, but if it's God's plan for you, then the verdict will still be the verdict you wanted or didnt want to avoid. It's not up to you, it's up to him. It's not something you can control, LIFE is something God controls in his mysterious ways. We may not be able to see why this is happening now, but somewhere down the road, you'll find out and you'll be like " oohhh. i get it now. " Coz God has a BIGGER picture, and he's drawn a BIG picture for you to fit into his. If life was always good and happy, then you wouldnt ask God for anything would you? you wouldnt ask anyone for anything because life is good! you dont need nobody's help! THAT'S why crap happens, that's why he let's the devil screw around with us. Coz he wants us to be strong, and to be strong, we NEED God. God doesnt need us, but because we are His children, how can he not love and continuously care for us?

That's why ive told myself to try to put God first. Would He want me to do this? Would He want me to say that? Pray, pray and pray. Read, read and read the Bible because it has ALL the answers in life. The Bible is full of heaps of ppl's LIFE EXPERIENCES and when you see 'life experiences' it's obvious, that God wants us to learn from them so we dont repeat what HAS happened. so we're aware of what WILL happen.

The past, the present and the future, the Bible has it all.

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

-Jeremiah 29:11

told yaa. ;)

Sacrifice.

2011-07-25T10:38:00.000+08:00

I had a lecture this morning at 10am.

Story cut short, ive decided to skip it because

my bus comes at 8.43am,

my relies were in the shower and toilet, getting ready for Caro at 9am,

i needed to take a number 2,

and my hair was still wet.

i then decided to skip my second lecture at 12pm because,
im blogging. still am. since 9.30am.
about Camp =D
and it's about Chemical Reactions in Chemistry.
i am familiar with it, ive done it before.
it's all about Revision and Remembering them (:

Meet my Jobaby. He's tired from his Church Camp too =')
CVC JUMPER FTW <3

SO ITS OKAYYYYY, dont worry peepos chiillll!
ill just have to find some free time to ilecture my lectures,
which will take a good 3 hours altogether.
that's not so badd :D
i can do it ^^

Miracles.

2011-07-21T14:43:00.000+08:00

Before i talk about Camp, id like to announce how ...

AWESOMELY GRATEFUL

I AM

ABOUT MY

EXAM RESULTS!!

(to recap, click here ! )

Hello, meet my Nana! ;] She says Haaaii ^^

it's not much, and definitely aint good enough as an asian, but i am happy about it. i feel really blessed. God will never leave you, God will always stay true to you as long as you're willing to look to Him in anything and everything (:

Snaaap =x

2011-07-21T14:33:00.000+08:00

talking behind ppl's back.

i especially hate to be spoken about behind my back,

and when i hate something,

i tend to make sure i dont do it or ill just avoid doing it.

Today he made me realise, (sangkiu! ^^)
that all these rants and frustrations about her,
has turned me into one terrible person.
ive turned into someone i wouldnt want to be friends with,
because she's someone who speaks about ppl she dont like behind their back.
(NO that aint no me yo! >:[)

It's funny how easily caught up in life we are,

that we only really realise halfway through,

that we've already been hit by the Avoidable.

So imma suck it in, take a deep breath and face it head on.

BRING IT HONEY! GOTTA TOUGHEN UP PRINCESS!

let your words bounce off or sink in, it's okay.

coz either way,

i am WILLING to master the Arts of Tolerance,

like JC mah man yo! <3

stupidity.

2011-07-17T19:10:00.000+08:00

maybe im too dependant.

too dependant that it scares me.

i shouldnt be feeling this way right?

is it different when we're with them?

yes.

am i okay with how close they are?

(n)

am i like him when im with my friends?

not as much?

why do i feel so intimidateddd rawwrrr

it's so stupid how im always pushing something i have to someone better.

not because i dont want it, i still really want it.

but because im just plain stupid like that.

im stupid enough to hurt myself so the best,

can get .. my best.

i shall conquerr!!

sighs, uni starts tmrw.

Here's to a brand new day,

a brand new semester,

and a brand new goal;

to not be taken for granted,

i shall do something about it.

Answers.

2011-07-14T23:17:00.001+08:00

What is God's Purpose for you in you life?

What is your reason for living?

What is your purpose.

stay tuned honeys coz im getting ready to.....

SLEEP XP

A Picture speaks a Thousand Words.

2011-07-14T23:13:00.000+08:00

sighs, i cant exercise when my aunt's hereeeeeeee.

why?

because i know she'll discourage and criticise me. trust me, it's true.

dude,

even when im blowing my hair or changing or using the computer or using my phone,

she always has SOMETHING bad to say. always. >:(

will i let this stop me from doing what i want?

of course not!

imma go outside and run this time, RUN.

4pm to the park outside my house, i am coming.

(she'll have something to say to that too, im sure of it! -.-")

hate feeling fattt

this is what happens when photographers take candid pictures of me sighs.

C.A.M.P.

2011-07-11T09:15:00.000+08:00

STARTS TODAY

so ill be on a hiatus folks,

see ya in a week! ;]

Cheerios!

2011-07-06T20:06:00.001+08:00

Here's to my huuuuuuuuuuugee

leap of faith.

*does a graceful leap*

Where Are My Glasses When I Need Them.

2011-07-02T03:18:00.000+08:00

told you i can tell when a guy likes a girl. TOLD youuuuuu (:

im serious enough about these kind of things,

to be able to tell when the feeling is or isnt mutual.

For awhile there,

it was nice to know that someone likeD me.

So thank you.

I truly appreciate your time ;)

You're Beautiful :)

2011-06-27T00:22:00.000+08:00

WORDS.

MEAN.

NOTHING.

dont be so gullible sta,

dont take it to heart,

it's not true.

just dont think about it.

yeah ..

okay.

I Cant Sleep.

2011-06-26T04:55:00.000+08:00

I Shall List Out My Plans For Youuu Happy Noodles!

Besides WORK,

From the 27th of June,

Monday Night: Dance

Tuesday Night: Dinner with Ivanna

Weds Night: Yeemon's Bday @ GoldBar

Thursday: (NO WORK hopefully) Baking with Ladies

Friday Night: Youth and Song Practice for Camp.

and that ends my week.

these holidays has been the most happening holidays ever,

ill have to admit (=

no time for dramas too,

boohoo!

In Too Deep.

2011-06-26T04:37:00.000+08:00

i dont know if ive told yous this, but im afraid of commitments. im afraid of falling in too deep.

When it comes to making friends, i make friends and make sure i dont get too close with them.

i dont tell them my secrets, and i dont ask them about their secrets.

it's up to them if they want to tell me their secrets.

it's up to me if i want to let them into my life.

and i usually dont. because im afraid of backstabbers. im dont like being judged. i dont like feeling betrayed.

im afraid of trusting ppl. i dont want to be held back. i dont want to feel attached. i want to be free. i want to do what i want to do without hurting anyone.

So when i feel like im in too deep, i panic.

i stop. i turn. i seek for cover. i defend. i rewind. i retook the steps i took.

i slowly come back out again, where it's nice and shallow.

where it's anything and everything but serious.

the question is,

where has my courage gone?

should i take a risk?

should i take this leap of faith?

what should i do?

Pray, Listen and Leave it be.

Let's see where the wind takes me.

heyyyy look what i found!

K-woo! x]

2011-06-24T00:33:00.000+08:00

CHORUS
Nice guys finish last,
That's why I'll treat you like trash,
It's not what I really wanna do.
But, you only date bad guys so,
I'll give it my best try to,Treat you the way you want me to.

VERSE 1

I never open a door,
or pull out a chair.
You can tell me how your day was
but I don't really care.
And if you ever get cold,
you'll just have to hack it,
Cause I'd be cold too
If I gave you my jacket.
Like WHOA, you ain't sittin up front,
Front is for the homies you can sit in the trunk.
I never answer my phone,
Whenever you call it
And when the waiter brings the bill
I never reach for my wallet.

CHORUS

VERSE 2
And Ima BEAT you!
At every competition.
Going out with the girls
You better get my permission.
Wait no, i take that back, you can't go,
House is on tonight
And that's my favorite show!
Do I look fat in this dress?
Hell yeah you do!
Wait lemme speak your language
Cows go Moo!
Mooo Moooo Mooo MOOOO!

CHORUS

BRIDGE
But behind the scenes she means the world to me.
Wanna tell her that she's beautiful, and show her that she's loved.
Hold her hand when she's scared, tell her how much I care...
But that won't win her heart BECAUSE....

Nice guys finish last...

not if he's you (:

doneDoneDONE.

2011-06-24T00:21:00.000+08:00

[the post that never got posted]

after my last exam yesterday, i just felt like doing something. anything!

i felt so freeee,

i felt like screaming,

i felt like telling the whooole worldd [=

ive just received my new NeoLens 2 nights ago,

i kind of like it though i think it's not as ..

constrasting as my Geos. (less defined)

passparTWOoot! <- JackieChan's name in AroundtheWorldIn80Days

2011-06-14T13:12:00.000+08:00

TWO down, ONE more paper to go!

Last paper's LAW on Thursday,

the one that's delaying my holidayys while everyone finishes today hmph /=

Its okay, an exam is an exam, do what you gotta do shootshootshootshootshoott~! ;]

ive been singing sentences to my friends lately; random ones, hilarious ones, relevant ones and rarely cheeseyy ones eww! I guess it's a good thing im singing, coz singing makes you happy! singing makes mee happy!

The only BAD thing about it is, i dont even know if it IS part of the lyrics of the songs, it just goes well with it hence the song comes in. o_O" yehh pretty bad right.

Anyhoo, back to studying. Law and smart twists and cases, i am fond of being able to study this unit (= Let's just hope i pass the exam,

GOT TO PRAY!

AND BERSEMBAHYANG!

OHH WO JIUJIU NII YEY SUU!

Fattehh!

2011-06-08T14:28:00.002+08:00

Ive been slacking so this shouldnt be surprising =[

MUST.

LOSE.

WEIGHT.

BY.

SUNDAY.

Most recent picture of me, hahaha gay fringe >"<

Before: i had lost 3 kgs.

Now: Thanks to all those dinnerssss out and ossum steamboat,
ive regained my 2kgs. =(

Dream.

2011-06-07T22:59:00.000+08:00

one can dream and dream and keep dreaming, but when does the dream come to an end?

it comes to an end when the dream becomes a reality;

something you've been waiting for, something unexpected.

oneDown.

2011-06-07T22:38:00.001+08:00

Good News: One exam donee!

Bad News: .. i hope they've got a supplementary exam for me x_x

(yea shush. it's really bad. really. bad. that. im not gonna think about it. nuh uh!)

moving onnn, ive just realised how im out of camwhoring pictures, like literally OUT of them.

ive not been taking any pictures of myself with my webcam recently, let alone my camera!

and im not even sure if this is something to be proud of hahaha

i had a pretty bad sleeping pattern last night, just to get ready for this exam which obviously raped me instead.

i studied at 9pm to 9.40pm, slept for 20 mins.

Woke up at 10pm and continued but napped for 30 mins.

Woke up at 11.30pm and studied until 12.30am.

Napped till 1am.

Continued my study till 3am. Slept until 4am.

Studied all the way till 6am.

Crashed and woke up at 6.20am to get ready for uni.

On the way to uni, i uber crammed and focused, reread everything, briefly went through the pictures and what not. When i reached uni, i went to my exam hall and the exam started and went on for 2 hours.

During the 1st hour, i was half dozing and half wrecking my brains to stay awake and at the same time, remember the terms and things ive studied. so to keep myself from embarassment by dozing off, i regularly took sips of water from my bottle. By the 2nd hour, my bladder was trying sooo hard not to burst, especially when the exam hall was freezing like IGA.

IT. WAS. A HORRIBLE. EXPERIENCE.

and im pretty sure some ppl out there who're reading this would be like, i told you so or you should've this this that that. well, SAVE IT. because im not regretting, im just sad that it had to end like this.

i gave studying my best, i made studying enjoyable by giving myself little treats here and there, i gave up my sleep, i fought so badly to keep my eyes open and my bladder close and i even tried so hard not to leave anything blank to the extent of even writing the most obvious answer that sadly wasnt what they were looking for, because i couldnt remember what it was called!

Let's go be Missionaries and drop Uni wheee [;