Sunday, July 31, 2011

it's been a shaky month, but great things has blossomed in between [:

i shall make a quick to do list because i might forget eek!

- Psychology Assignment
- Catch up on Chem Lecture and Psych Lecture
- Brief reading for Chem Test tomorrow
- Finish blogging about Camp - 2 more posts.
- Brother's Night, ideas ideas IDEAS!
- Shop for 3 Gifts!
- Start Daily Devotions!

okay now that ive got that outtt of the way, pew pew!! i feel alot better :)

last week's been great and bad, mmm how should i sum it up for yas [=
my head's a bit scattered atm, so please pardon meh! first thing i did today was blog about camp for 4 hours straight -.-

LAST WEEK.
M: went to uni, had first class of dance. it was refreshing and fun!
T: got ready for lecture, but found out a few minutes before that ive done this lecture before. Thank God baby was driving (: 
W: went for my tute which ended in half an hour XD caught up with some friends ive not seen for awhile.
Jammed with drums at baby's after. Ced came along and found his new passion for drums LOL XD
Bf and i had dinner at his. We watched Transformers 3 at the cinemas, for the first time.
T: Worked in the morning and studied in the arvo, went to see baby at his work to collect my phone.
(id left in his car but it dropped on the floor, so he didnt know till i came to collect it unexpectedly FAILL!)
F: finished uni late, baby came to visit and stayed for 3 hours at uni so he can send me home. 



All that was drama-edited hehehe! x]
just so you dont go 
" ohh her life's all good now. everything's happy and in place."
not really, no. 
but im accepting however it goes :]


TODAY, 
it's been a full day and ive still not spoken to my parents =/
OF COURSE i intend to speak to them again, but atm. 
too many things to do, 
dad's still a bit grumpy, 
mom must be waiting for me to speak to her.
bro's okay now, thank God for that.
i love my sister to bits, always by my side, 
always forgiving and willing to listen to both sides.

ON A SIDENOTE! ^^
Ive got my room all to myself now, 
privacy's all mine, 
have to re-arrange and find my missing clothes, 
can exercise in my room again, 
get to dance to my beats and heats!
get to use my speakers to my favourite songs,
get to usee my whooooole bed and unfold my loong bodayy.






Life is back to how it used to be,
and now that it is, 
it's time to work my way up again. 
Starting from me.
GO!

Met Snoopy.


Because of Snoopy, 
ive got a good photo of my family and i working, 

ive got pictures with my Nana, 

Got to learn the arts of making these rice dumplings in bamboo leaves from Nana!

- im not afraid to take pictures with my black teeth!
 
 - ive realised how strong my sisterhood bond is!

- ive never seen sooooo much laksa in my life!

- us three siblings got to jam to a FULL song together!

- i got to eat a SanChurros sundae meant for 2, alllll by myself YAY!


- we got to see animals hump ;]

- i got to go to the zoo with my boy!


- got to promote my undies woo!

- got to have pictures with the couples! [;

and i got to unleashed my inner LIONNESS RAWRR!

 


so thank you, Snoopy (:
Never got to watch your cartoons but 
im glad i got to meet you.


Anyong. Goodbye. Adios <3 

I want to be someone succesful! xD Why? What does Success really mean? =/

SUCCESS. 
is it money? family? good grades? good job? fame? being awesome? ruling the world? marrying someone rich? being a doctor? being a priest? travelling around the world? winning?

Success 
Obedience + Faithfulness 

=
 Success

Jeremiah Chapter ONE!
" Do not say 'I am too young.' " 
"You must go to everyone i send you to and say whatever I command you to."
" Do not be afraid"
" I am with you and will rescue you"


Suffering is a part of life. The only way we learn and truly grow, is when we SUFFER and OVERCOME that suffering. Know that we cant do it alone, you can try and of course, we'd like to think that it's better if we give it a try first right? if we dont depend on anyone, we can be strong on our own two feet. God thinks otherwise though. He WANTS us to depend on Him because there are some things we just caaaaant overcome on our own, that's why they're such things called Suffering and Challenges. KNOW that we're not alone. God's hand is always there, ready to hold, ready to help.

God is our Father and 
What do Fathers do?



They look out for you, protect you, care for you, looooove you unconditionally.

Dont be afraid to ask him for help. Why are you afraid?
If you go to your parents and tell them you're hungry, what will they do?
They'll give you a loaf of bread coz they dont want you starving to death!
so! Do not fear, my dear siblings,  
We are God's Children and 
God, Our Father, will provide and teach us along the way.

Here's a 'new' word to learn for the day peepos!

-> CONSECRATE <-
to declare or Set Apart As Sacred.



The question is, 

Will you do it? 
Can you do it?
If you think you're not ready, 
WHEN will you ever be ready?

Will you consecrate
 YOUR LIFE 
to a blank contract from God,
you dont know what will happen or
where your life will take you.

The only thing you can cling on to is, 
your faith and hope in believing that whatever it is, it will be okay. 

11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart14 I will be found by you,” declares the LORD, “and will bring you back from captivity.[b]
Jer 29

HAHA retards (:


GOD. WILL. BE. THERE. FOR. ME.
I WILL BE OKAY.
THIS WILL BE AN AWESOME JOURNEY WITH GOD.
WITH GOD.



19 They will fight against you but will not overcome you, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the LORD. - Jer 1

See?
Our journey with God is not meant to be easy, 
said the Bible [=
xx


I Cant Predict The Future. But would i want to know what my future looks like?

Our past influences our future. 

Imagine you're like a normal tiiineh grain of sand, amongst all the other grains of sand. Watch this video and keep reading hehe!


9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.
Joshua 1: 9

If you place yourself in the hands of an Awesome creator, Amazing things can happen.
Our Awesome Creator has a great plan for you and me and everyone else, only if we allow Him to work in us. Are you ready for it to happen?

That is all MWAHAHA. 
pretty straight forward yesh? ;]

God can take the Ordinary 
and change it to 
something EXTRAordinary!
(have faith my fellow cupcakes! ^^)


tadaa! like this Jewish fella! 
WHO WOULD HAVE KNOWN LOOOLL (: (:
*applause!!*
something ordinary into something extraordinary. 

Then we were asked to plan out a Timeline of our Life, kind of like a time of Reflection. Here were the questions asked. What does your Life Timeline look like? o_O

List these out 
- Major Events in Your life, both good and bad.
- Times you fondly remember.
- Times you wish to forget.

Good : Being a part of people's life. It's an incredible feeling to know that you can make a difference in their life. that you matter, that you've impacted their journey; that you've been in a chapter of their story. oh hello there hehe! (: (:


(God feels like that too. Our Father should be the center of our life. just as WE are, 
the apple of His eye. )



Bad : When i've lost or drifted away from my loved ones or those close to me; be it through death or lost of touch, it hurts when i walk pass them on the streets and go " hey i once used to know him/her, but now we're like strangers of a different world.. coz we've drifted. Just like that ._."


(imagine how God feels about those who's parted and drifted from him :'( 
them who were once and still IS, His Children. )


Fond memories : When we celebrate Chinese New Year or Birthdays, or Parents' Day. That's why we celebrate them! To remember and make them a day like no other! ;]


(always thank God for Jesus' birth, for without Jesus, 
who else dyou know, 
who's holy and pure, 
who'd save US from our sin?)


Bad memories: Times when i felt so lost, when my world seemed to be falling apart .. over the littlest things that now seem so unimportant. 
Back then, my world 'crashed and burned'
over my addiction to Anime during dinner, 
over my Frustration of not being able to go for Dancing lessons while i was still young and flexible, 
over my Embarrassment when all eyes turned to me whenever i was placed in the spotlight, 
over my Anger of not being able to hang out with my friends because they ALL live so far away, or rather, i lived far faar away from everyone else. 
over my Negativity towards my ownself, 
over my Disappointment in my own Weaknesses. 


(That's why in the Bible, 
God keeps reminding us to not be attached to EARTHLY things. 
Money CanT buy us happiness and
Money is also the Root of all Sins.
Clothes and other superficial materialistic things here on earth are of 
NO VALUE 
when we enter God's kingdom that lasts forever; 
for eternity.)

so What do you think your Journey means? 
What is its reason?

Looking back, i am glad everything happened or didnt happen. All these events pointed me towards God, stressing that it's important to abide by His word and commandments, so i can find peace and joy IN Him.
These were all done to mould and shape me, 
to get me ready for whenever He shall use me (:

Always remember that,


Whatever that's happened in the past, 
has shaped the Person You've become today.




Monday, July 25, 2011

What are we. Why are we here. What do you want from us.

We are made for the same purpose.

1. For God's Pleasure.
[2Cor 3: 1-5] 
Verse 1-4: "Father of compassion" " God of all comfort " ".. who comforts us in all our troubles " " so that we can comfort those in any trouble "
verse 5 : We shouldnt receive all the credits of being competant because our competence comes from God.

We MUST rely on God and His strength to find our purpose in life. Relying only on our gifts and talents to serve Him isnt enough, we must go deeper than that and worship God, our Creator and Provider, for His many blessings and love.


2. For His Glory
Like David in Psalm 57: Even amongst his fears and turmoils, David still talks about praising and glorifying God. 
Praise the Lord at ALL times, praise him when you're happy, praise him when you're sad and angry because he controls all things. There IS a reason to why you're going through, what you're going through. And always remember, no matter how hard it seems to overcome this trial or challenge, God will pull you through whatever He puts you through. He'll NEVER forsake you coz He is your FATHER, and YOU are, His CHILD.


3. For His Purpose
[Gen 1:28] " be fruitful and increase in number " " fill the earth and subdue it "
Subdue = Overcome.
[Matt 28: 18-20] " go and make disciples of all nation " " teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you " " surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age "

Listen to God's promise. 
When God promises something, He STICKS to it. like a REAL MAN! YEAAAAABOI! =D
So we need to care about the things around us because it's where we have to overcome and tell the people about God's love. To save them before Jesus comes back.


4. For His Delight
[Romans 12: 1-2] " your bodies " " holy and pleasing to God - this is your true and proper worship " " Do not conform to the pattern of this world " 
[1 Corinthians 6: 12-20] " The body is not meant for sexual immorality but for the Lord " "Whoever is united with the Lord is one with him in Spirit." " Flee from sexual immorality " "You are not your own, you were bought at a price " "Therefore honour God with your bodies "

Stand your ground and know what's right or wrong. Even if you dont know if it's right or wrong, ask yourself. Is this what God wants you to do? how about Jesus, His son. What would Jesus do.


5. Its Not About You
[1 Peter 3] " your beauty should not come from outward adornment " "rather it should be that of your inner self " " unfading beauty of a quiet and gentle spirit " " of great worth in God's sight " 

it's what's INSIDE that really matters, LOOK WITHIN. 
we should also learn to accept ourselves as God's wonderful creation because if we cant accept ourselves, how are we gonna find out what our purpose in life is?? 
Look at yourself in the mirror and tell God in all seriousness " 
Thank You for creating Me (:
 "




Are You Willing? Are You Ready? Can You Do it?

Devotion 1
Am i willing to decide, in advance, that i will do what God asks me to do, no matter what it is?
Do you honestly believe that God made you for a specific purpose?
What gets you angry?
What gives you energy in life?
What are some of your greatest failure?

i can say i am willing now, but when things arent going my way and when all seems to be falling apart, im sure ill say no, i am not willing. this is something id like to change. i definitely believe that God made me and you for a reason, ive always believed there's a reason behind everything and anything. There're no such things as coincidences. My energy comes from serving God with all i have and being able to use the gifts He's blessed me with; dancing, smiling, talking, laughing, piano, drums, singing, humming etc. My greatest failure in life is not being able to appreciate what i have in life until it's gone. not taking it while i could have, and wondering what could've happened if i striked. 

it's different now, ive made a note to myself to do and live life to the fullest. to not live in regrets. if i want to do something, id rather do it and fail than never to have given it a try. If God asks me to leave and do something for Him, i pray that ill be able to do it. Because God our Father knows what's best for us, He'll hold our hands throughout our journey. Because He is our Father, and what do Fathers do?
They take care and love you, they want the best for you. Our Father will protect us, coz WE are His children.

Devotion 2
Character or Career?
Does it have to be a choice?
If it came down to it, which would i choose?
What makes a Godly character?
Are these character traits evident in my life?

Does it have to be a choice hey? i believe that Character is something WE should work on, and leave our Career to God. Would God give you a career you wouldnt like? That's doubting God and His choice, His plans for us. Why would He want to give us a career we wouldnt enjoy? 
He knows us even when we're in our mother's womb, He knows what we want to say even before we speak them out. God keeps telling us that He has a plan for us, a plan to PROSPER us, not to harm us. is that not clear enough? so if you want to do something now, be it hairdressing or being a doctor, if you earnestly pray to God about it, i believe that He will reveal His plans for you when you are ready, and trust me, He KNOWS when you are ready. He has a biiiiiig plan that we humans arent supposed to understand, as it's to complex. He's the God that created men, that created the earth and all living and non living things. The God that created heaven and hell, something we cant see or possibly imagine what it looks like.
So back to my point, WE should work on our character so God can show us His plans for us when we're ready (: 

[22] But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, [23] gentleness and self-control.
-Galations 5

Are these evident in my life? Sometimes they are, sometimes they arent. This is why we fall so easily, coz we're all sinners. When God gives you an opportunity in life, anyyy opportunity, regarding studies, future, family, love, friends or being a testimony for Him, are you willing to go for it? or are you going to give it a miss .. forever. It only comes once. and know that whatever you have here on earth, is temporary. What lies beyonnd earth in Heaven, lasts for eternity. E-T-E-R-NITY.


Devotion 3
Short story about Samson & Delilah : (Judges 13-16)
Samson was a very strong man with long hair. He was given an incredible power to protect the people of Israel, because they always seem to be in trouble. The Israelites would always triumph in wars because of Samson's incredible strength given by God. One day he met a girl named Delilah and fell in love with her. Delilah was bribed by Israel's enemy, to find out Samson's weakness. So Delilah went home and asked Samson about his incredible strength, about his weaknesses. Samson did not want to tell her so nights passed by and Samson kept lying to Delilah about his weaknesses. Delilah got angry and finally one night, she got him drunk and told Samson that if he truly really loved her, he'd tell her what his weakness is. So Samson having been intoxicated, told her that his strength came from his hair. If it was cut off, his strength would disappear and he would be as weak as any other man. So delighted Delilah quicklyy cut his hair off, tied him up and called the enemy. The enemy took him away and true enough, he was as weak as any other man alive. They tortured him and tied both his arms to two pillars while all of Israel's enemies and Delilah were having a party of victory in front of him. Samson prayed to God and asked one last time, for the incredible strength he once had. God granted him the strength for one more last time, and with it, Samson took down the two pillars and killed all of Israel's enemies in the building, including himself. 

What was Samson's purpose in life?
What were his distractions?
What can we learn from his life?


Samson was appointed with the incredible to save the Israelites from harm. He made a mistake of letting out his weakness to Delilah, but because he understood God's purpose for creating and blessing him with that incredible strength, he saved Israel one more last time even if it meant ending his own life. That was God's purpose for Samson. 

So we should check ourselves for the gifts God has blessed us with, with the hands, eyes, legs and body God has given to us and search for God's purpose for us in our life. Search for our reason. What we can do for Him, what He wants us to do for Him. If we dont acknowledge our own strengths and weaknesses, how are we going to serve God with what we have? we dont even know what we have or dont have. Be ready my fellow friends, know, acknowledge and be true to yourself and God. Stop putting yourself down and know that we're all unique in our own ways.

Devotion 4


How am i trusting God in my life right now?
How is God shaping me right now?
Am i living by faith or am i in control?
How does my life reflect the purpose of the cross?

Am i one to take things as they are. Coz ive told you, i believe everything happens for a reason. You can try your best to change something that's going to happen, but if it's God's plan for you, then the verdict will still be the verdict you wanted or didnt want to avoid. It's not up to you, it's up to him. It's not something you can control, LIFE is something God controls in his mysterious ways. We may not be able to see why this is happening now, but somewhere down the road, you'll find out and you'll be like " oohhh. i get it now. " Coz God has a BIGGER picture, and he's drawn a BIG picture for you to fit into his. If life was always good and happy, then you wouldnt ask God for anything would you? you wouldnt ask anyone for anything because life is good! you dont need nobody's help! THAT'S why crap happens, that's why he let's the devil screw around with us. Coz he wants us to be strong, and to be strong, we NEED God. God doesnt need us, but because we are His children, how can he not love and continuously care for us? 

That's why ive told myself to try to put God first. Would He want me to do this? Would He want me to say that? Pray, pray and pray. Read, read and read the Bible because it has ALL the answers in life. The Bible is full of heaps of ppl's LIFE EXPERIENCES and when you see 'life experiences' it's obvious, that God wants us to learn from them so we dont repeat what HAS happened. so we're aware of what WILL happen. 
The past, the present and the future, the Bible has it all.


For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
-Jeremiah 29:11

 told yaa. ;)
<3

Sacrifice.

I had a lecture this morning at 10am. 
Story cut short, ive decided to skip it because 
my bus comes at 8.43am, 
my relies were in the shower and toilet, getting ready for Caro at 9am, 
i needed to take a number 2, 
and my hair was still wet.

i then decided to skip my second lecture at 12pm because, 
im blogging. still am. since 9.30am.
about Camp =D
and it's about Chemical Reactions in Chemistry. 
i am familiar with it, ive done it before. 
it's all about Revision and Remembering them (:


Meet my Jobaby. He's tired from his Church Camp too =')
CVC JUMPER FTW <3

SO ITS OKAYYYYY, dont worry peepos chiillll! 
ill just have to find some free time to ilecture my lectures, 
which will take a good 3 hours altogether. 
that's not so badd :D
i can do it ^^ 

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Miracles.

Before i talk about Camp, id like to announce how ... 
AWESOMELY GRATEFUL 
I AM 
ABOUT MY 
EXAM RESULTS!!
(to recap, click here ! )

Hello, meet my Nana! ;] She says Haaaii ^^

 it's not much, and definitely aint good enough as an asian, but i am happy about it. i feel really blessed. God will never leave you, God will always stay true to you as long as you're willing to look to Him in anything and everything (:

Snaaap =x

talking behind ppl's back. 
i especially hate to be spoken about behind my back, 
and when i hate something, 
i tend to make sure i dont do it or ill just avoid doing it.

Today he made me realise, (sangkiu! ^^)
that all these rants and frustrations about her, 
has turned me into one terrible person. 
ive turned into someone i wouldnt want to be friends with, 
because she's someone who speaks about ppl she dont like behind their back.
(NO that aint no me yo! >:[)

It's funny how easily caught up in life we are, 
that we only really realise halfway through, 
that we've already been hit by the Avoidable.








So imma suck it in, take a deep breath and face it head on. 
BRING IT HONEY! GOTTA TOUGHEN UP PRINCESS! 
let your words bounce off or sink in, it's okay.
coz either way, 
i am WILLING to master the Arts of Tolerance,
like JC mah man yo! <3

Sunday, July 17, 2011

stupidity.

maybe im too dependant.
too dependant that it scares me.
i shouldnt be feeling this way right?

is it different when we're with them? 
yes.
am i okay with how close they are? 
(n)
am i like him when im with my friends? 
not as much?
why do i feel so intimidateddd rawwrrr



it's so stupid how im always pushing something i have to someone better. 
not because i dont want it, i still really want it. 
but because im just plain stupid like that.
im stupid enough to hurt myself so the best, 
can get .. my best.

i shall conquerr!!
..


sighs, uni starts tmrw
Here's to a brand new day, 
a brand new semester, 
and a brand new goal;
to not be taken for granted, 
i shall do something about it.